I started transition in the last weeks of 2011. Now, five or so years later I am past my end point, the part of transition that I always regarded as being as far as I wanted to go. For me that was GRS and initially I did not even think I wanted to go that far.
I joined support groups, both in real-life and online. I educated myself about everything MTF, but I am still clueless about most FTM stuff and as for non-binary, I have not got the foggiest idea about what is going on with that. The system I went through has started to change and so the knowledge I was able to pass on to others is becoming dated and wrong.
I have no more transitioning to do. I never let it become my be-all-and-end-all. It was something I had to do and it is done and my life is full of more non-trans stuff than I can fit in. Something has to go. It is time for me to stop being trans.
I need to move on. This chapter of my life is over and I need to allow the new chapters that are coming along to have the space in my life to let me experience and enjoy them. I am very binary and very happy blending in as a female. I am not stealth, that is not possible for me as I still know almost everyone I have ever known, but most people have had enough of hearing me gabble on about trans stuff. They have moved past my transition and I need to keep up with them.
I am finally happy in myself. All the "shameful" secrets I kept hidden for years have been exposed and no one can embarrass me or blackmail me with them. I have no shame about being me or the process I underwent to get here.
I have always tried to ensure that the support I have given has been more than returned by the support I gave back, both here and on other forums, blogs and real-life groups. I have made many real-life trans friends and I will be staying in touch with them because they are my friends and, like me, almost all of them are post-transition too.
I guess my message is "Keep going forwards and never let transition become your entire life because everything, even transition, has an end to it".
Good luck and best wishes to you all x x
