My time of the month is really screwing with me. More than it usually does. It used to not give me too much grief when I first got it. The only things that would happen would be I'd feel a drop in body temperature and get an undeniable craving for cheesy snacks. I'd experience pain no worse than the average person who gets it, too. Lately for the past four or more cycles there is definitely a change.
Where I used to NEVER experience symptoms of PMS for YEARS before(crying, depression, anger fits), suddenly I'm experiencing much more or it the past several months. I usually know when my cycle is around the corner nowadays when I experience a random crying jag during the month. Then I get angry, sometimes feel suicidal and then I feel fine again. It's weird. But at least i can usually pinpoint when my period will start. Although, just to eff with me, my period is showing up a few days to a full week earlier than I predicted. And they've been strange. The first day is usually mild pain along with some spotting, day two is terrible pain with a huge flow, then the following days are filled with more light spotting. The whole thing lasts around 4-5 days when it used to last a whole week.
I'm concerned if this may be more than simple PMS related and more PMDD (pre-menstrual dysphoric disorder) or even depression. Because my mood is not improving once my period is finally here like PMS is supposed to. Mom suggested I go to the gyno since I need a check up anyway. That thought really filled me with dread.
After the last time I had to spread my legs for a doctor (to get the stent from my ureter removed), I am really not looking forward to it. No one can get me to relax enough, no amount of drugs will help calm me down (seriously, VALIUM failed to keep me cool), I cannot stand when someone goes poking around my nethers. I will scream, panic, sweat through my clothes, cry hysterically from the agony, it's not happening. I know doctors don't like anesthesia since it's risky and all that, but I told mom I am going to immediately request it if the doctor suggests a pelvic exam. I am fine on anesthesia. I come out it just great, and I don't have any nasty side effects.
Mom swore that this doctor is more careful than the last gyno I had, but I still have my doubts. I thought about having to go through another pelvic exam and I started crying and closing my legs on instinct. I was wondering if anyone has had anything similar to my experience so maybe I can give the doctor an easier diagnosis.
