So I got inheritance, and finally am able to transition which is very surreal. A month ago I went to Sydney and had breast augmentation. I went into the surgery it looked like so dodgy, I was like is this the same place who is a renowned surgeon by hundreds of reviews and was rated 4.5 stars. Or am In a different clinic. The nurse walked straight past me and was calling out my name, I said that's me, she gave me weird looks but was nice and polite told me to take shirt off ect. At this point I just wanted to get the out of there , I was so scared, what happened to 5 years of pre-empting this kinda of anxiety. My grandma had to wait outside, I was so frightened, the doctor walked in, he said I bet your really nervous, I said yes. He said and you want to run away don't you, I said yes, he said that's normal. I felt a bit better, the doctor was really calming and then I went to sleep and came out feeling sore and drowsy. I don't remember anything.
I came back to my boobs busting up to an enormous size, I was rushed to hospital via ambulance, and yes having to explain things to paramedics and nurses is embarrassing but I got through it.. So the doctors tried to get onto my surgeon via phone, couldn't reach him.
So they did an ultra scan found out I had internal bleeding. I was told the chances were slim for this, staff were all nice were like what pronouns do we say , what would you like to be named, I just said call me by my birth name and male pronoun it really doesn't bother me at this very moment , as it's not like I've changed anything over. So they were like really down to earth , and they were really like weirder off at the start, but by end of night , me and my grandma. They just treated me regular and normal. SO I was told to go home, and they gave me painkillers.
Well these painkillers were actually blood thinners, and making the internal bleeding flow throughout my whole body, I literally was in pain for a week before I realized , I needed to go ring an ambulance when i woke up choking. I was thinking isn't BA suppose to be the non painful surgery? So I did some research, I was in that much pain compressing my body and using ice. I stopped taking the thinners, talked to my surgeon he said "what incompetent doctors, he was like STOP TAKING THEM immediately. I told him I did, I showed him photos he said just keep using ice and the painkillers he prescribed. My body healed literally in 2 days , I went to gp , she said I have no scaring /stretch marks, and my boobs are so good , she even complimented my nipples.
So I'm having FFS with doctor DiMaggio , I will be going with grandma again which is again less nerve racking. I am nervous Because it's in a place where Spanish is the main language, I don't speak any of it. And cultural normals are different so that's going to be kinda interesting, as I'm Australian. Australians are laid back, well we're I'm from anyway , I tell someone I'm trans and they're like yeah good on you , who cares. I've been watching you tube videos to get a sense of their culture but not sure how I'm going to overcome the language barrier for 23 days. Also I'm scared because I'm really curious on my surgery results, so I'm frightened if I won't like, but everything we have discussed, I do like. So it's like all I can do is wait and see.
Did anyone else feel like this? I'm turning 26 I'm a really anxious person , my bf of 3 years said I'll be fine, but he'll miss me alot , he couldn't get time off work as he just started a new job , he is coming to my thailand trip for SRS though. I hate surgeries, and I need to get them to feel happier and I know this because my breast job makes me feel like such a woman, and I just feel like I should of done it sooner. I think best part is when I'm asleep as it's the easiest. So any comments to get me more prepared? I was thinking how do I even navigate in different culture countries, do I use a google translator or some kind of app or research, am I overthinking it? AM I going to want to run out again when it comes to the surgery.
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