I am a female at birth with a male soul who is struggling between gender fluid or full male. I do plan on getting in the far future when I can afford it little by little my transition into a full male. I have lived as a male for 6 months before, but was discouraged by thoughts of having a harder time getting a job, housing, and the fact that my family didn't take me seriously as a male and wouldn't call me my male name. My family keeps telling me what a pretty girl I am and what a shame it would be. By the time I have the money after working a decade or two at least they will have passed on to heaven. I believe I'll be my true male self in heaven and they'll have to accept me that way.
I am a faithful believer in Jesus Christ. I pray that Jesus will help me resolve this issue. I feel acceptance from Jesus Christ and like this is a challenge I've been given in life.
My male life partner doesn't know about my male identity yet and I am hoping he's a closet bisexual so he will accept me this way. My final decision about transition in the future will be about whether he accepts me that way or not. It would affect both of our lives drastically if we weren't together.
