Hello everyone.
Since January 25 I have been plagued by intrusive thoughts of being trans.
These thoughts began when I was having trouble sleeping and started having some delusions of someone telling me that I was a woman (this one was a false account of a radfem lesbian I created on Facebook,I created this account because I admired radfem women and I wanted to be among them and learn about their movement without being hostilized for being a man).
Since that day many images of me wearing women's clothes and being treated by female pronouns have plagued me.I've always been totally ok with my gender,I always behaved as a cisgender boy and later as teenage cisgender boy,I once wore women's clothing when I was a kid but it was because my female friend made to and not because I wanted to and it was so meaningless to me that I had even forgotten that.
Before January 25 I was in the process of accepting myself as a gay guy and was beginning to accept myself as a boy who likes boys(although my mother told me I was too masculine to be gay)
I'm 100% okay with my body and I do not want to modify it,but when I say this,intrusive thoughts come and tell me otherwise and this goes against what I feel,I see myself as a man when these thoughts are out of me(these thoughts were out of me for a long time since January 25 but they returned recently),I am also totally ok with being recognized as a man and be treated as one.
I tried to wear some clothes from my mother but I felt uncomfortable with it,I only tried these clothes because those intrusive thoughts told me to do that.
Anyway,all these thoughts intrusive thoughts make anxious,desperate,fearful,insecure and extremely uncomfortable and they come all the time.
I really need help, any advice is welcome.
*I am 17 years old
