Hi ! Giving a full introduction feels a bit overwhelming to me at the moment so I think I'll go for a quick summary..
I'm Joanie, born male, started crossdressing at 5 or 6 , got caught. When my parents asked me if I wanted to be a girl i said no even though the answer was an emphatic YES. I was too embarrassed and was able to set it aside as an impossibility and though i had gender dysphoria it was abstract to a degree and I was able to function as a boy quite well.. anyyyyyhow! it's all been unravelling over the last few years and now I'm trying to figure out whether I really want to transition, whether its all real haha , is it all just a fetish? Just a confused transgender girl tryin to figure it all out

This seems like a really nice place and its been so helpful being able to browse here and read!
thanks for existing Susan's!