I'm Nik, I'm 26 years old, and I'm nonbinary and gender neutral. My pronouns are they/them/theirs. I'm afab and I've always felt super uncomfortable with my body's curves and high voice, but I don't consider myself a man, either.
So, anyway, I recently started taking testosterone as of mid December, so I've been on it for approximately three months now. Most of the changes I really like, but I'm having a time over having gained some weight. I went to my psydoc's office for a regularly scheduled appointment and he said I've gained 16 pounds since he last saw me, which was also in December. I'm 194 and 5' 8", and if anything, I feel healthier physically now than before. More stamina, especially, which is lovely. But as I said, I'm struggling with the weight gain, and that's because I also have struggled with eating disorders for about 12 years now. I consider myself in recovery, but every day's a fight.
So, it's tough, in that respect. I'm in a small town in northern Florida, and I stay with my lowkey disrespectful parents and brother, all of whom consistently misgender me. So that's not ideal, but I'm trying to deal because I'm also disabled and so I have nowhere to go, really, until I get those payments coming in. I have bipolar disorder and am generally a hot damn mess, so while I'd like to work, mentally, I just can't handle it.
What I'm trying to say is, I don't get a lot of contact with other trans folks, so that's why I'm here, aside from also trying to get more information about other people's experiences with T and hormones in general. I'm also interested in connecting with people who are taking hormones and who have bipolar disorder and other mental health concerns, whether you've been to a psydoc and gotten an "official" diagnosis or not. Reason being is, there aren't a lot of academic studies that look into the effects of hormones in people who were assigned female at birth, so anecdotal stuff is all I've got to go on, and this seems like as good a place as any to get more information on these things and their intersection, which I'm wont to do to try to make sense of what I'm going through, as much as that's possible.
I do have other interests, obviously, but this intro post has already gotten kind of long, so I'll leave it at that.
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