More dysphoria?

[Midnightstar]

I didn't where to post this so i decided to post it here plus i feel like i'm spamming certain sections, iv'e always had that fear. Anyways i keep noticing female parts of the body that iv'e never taken notice to for example thighs or something that's different but before never noticed. And suddenly me noticing has token place and everything i notice gets me more dysphoric about my body in that area. I was wondering if this is common and if others have experienced it before. I wish it would just stop :/

[Laura_7]

I didn't where to post this so i decided to post it here plus i feel like i'm spamming certain sections, iv'e always had that fear. Anyways i keep noticing female parts of the body that iv'e never taken notice to for example thighs or something that's different but before never noticed. And suddenly me noticing has token place and everything i notice gets me more dysphoric about my body in that area. I was wondering if this is common and if others have experienced it before. I wish it would just stop :/

Well its in the head.

You notice something and look for it then.
I'd say do it the other way around.
Think consciously that men have the same thighs ... they can pass completely well as male.
So its normal.


*hugs*

[Dex]

I feel the same way, even almost 2.5 years on T. I notice what has changed, but sometimes even things that are not male or female specifically remind me of my old self and trigger a wave of dysphoria. I can be looking at myself in the mirror and my eyes (which clearly are not "male" or "female" and clearly would not change with T) will trigger seeing my "old" self. Then I start to question how much I've really changed. Even though, logically, I know that I have changed drastically. It is really hard to describe and maybe I'm not making sense. But I do get where you're coming from, and it is normal. The only way I can deal with it is to take a deep breath, concentrate on the parts that I can see have changed and how well they've changed. If you're not on T, pick out things that don't bother you or maybe not even physical things that you like about yourself (or don't hate about yourself) and remind yourself that there are cis-men who share all of the same characteristics you see as "female". We are just more sensitive to it because of our history. I wish I had a way to make it stop... It is definitely a journey.

[spro]

A lot of us are too critical of our bodies. I know I am. I've also been on T 2.5 years and still find things to pick on about my body. Some days it's worse than others and I look at my waist or my legs or my eyes and think "I'm still so feminine" and get really down in the dumps. But you have to remind yourself that other people don't always see the things you're really sensitive about. Some people even find those things attractive! So it's a matter of what perspective you're seeing yourself from.

It's kind of like the "glass half empty" thing. You have to remind yourself to see the glass as half full instead. Instead of saying "Look how feminine my thighs are!" say "Look how manly my muscles are!"