Too scared to do real life test without FFS

[FrancisAnn]

Since I have accepted the harsh reality hormones didn't make me pass, I have decided I am afraid of leaving where I live dressed as a female out of fear of getting killed. I wouldn't go outside dressed in female clothes until at least I have FFS, but even then I still need to work on my voice. Have any of you been in this situation? How should I feel about this? I live in the San Francisco Bay Area, but all it takes is one person motivated by hatred to end my life.

Lucky you really, try living in "Baptist red neck" Alabama! I had a facelift & eye work 2 years ago. Plastic surgeons can do miracles almost. Good luck, be strong.

[Rachel]

As of November 13, 2015 I went full time. Before that I expressed at group and in the gayborhood.

I need surgeries to pass. As such I have accepted who I am. After going full time and settling in I really stared to like how I feel about myself. My PA-C and therapist both commented about how my aura has changed ( I had to post after GeekGirl mentioned Aura).

I work in University City in Philadelphia. It is very LGBT friendly.