I am having one of the worst days in a long time

[blossom]

First, I was supposed to get re-started on HRT today, but the doctor I saw said they were the wrong doctor and I would have to get referred to another doctor who will take another month to see. Why didn't they tell me the right doctor to see when I called for an appointment and explained I wanted HRT? The doctor I did see said she'd check with the right doctor and try to get me something in the meantime, but I forgot to ask if she was doing that today and if someone is going to call me once the conversation has happened and prescription is ordered.

I go to my car and see a parking ticket on the windshield for parking the wrong direction. I genuinely didn't know that was illegal. Now I have to pay $63.00 just for parking in the wrong direction.

I went to the library and needed to park much farther than usual and when I got inside and signed into a computer I realized I forgot a paper I needed. So I had to sign out and walk all the way back to my car to get the paper.

Then my vending card didn't work when I needed to print, but then the one good thing in the day happened and the library employee let me print my three pages for free.

Oh, and I was supposed to get a call from a staffing agency recruiter today at 1:30pm PST and he never called me. I tried calling him and left a voicemail and I sent him an e-mail, but still no call.

I am feeling overwhelmed and really stressed out. I'm not at the point of wanting to hurt myself, but if I can't get things under control, it might get there.

Please help me.

[Hunchdebunch]

Hi Blossom, I'm sorry to hear you've had such a bad time today. Is there an activity you can do to de-stress at all? Like a calming hobby, or a favourite film? Sometimes when things are really bad and I feel completely overwhelmed, the only thing that helps me is to lay on my bed in the dark and listen to music. Just let the world seem to stop for a little while, so I can catch up. I also find it soothing to have a lava lamp or colour changing lamp as the only light source while I do so. I don't know if this is of any help to you, but I wish you the best and hope that you will have a better day tomorrow!

[blossom]

Thank you Kolby, my lone replier I don't really own any movies or own any music. I usually just try laying down on my bed and try to regulate my breathing.

[Jayne]

When I need to de stress I listen to Mike Oldfield - the songs of distant earth, as the music carries me away I picture bubbles floating around me, each bubble is a happy memory, in my imagination I see glimpses of the memories & when I want to focus on one I reach out & touch the bubble, I then imagine the bubble growing until I'm in it reliving the good times.

Life has a way of balancing out in the long run, I lost my job & my home after coming out, I lived in a hostel for a year whilst battling depression & insomnia.
Now I have a lovely flat, I'm several years into my transition & once I've had my GRS ( hopefully before the year ends) I'll be able to commit to a 1 yr apprenticeship to become a support worker.
You may be going through a tough time but things will get better & someday you'll look back on this as just a minor bump in the road

[blossom]

Thank you for your advice.

[williamspace]

I'm having a day like this too, I empathize with you.
What I plan to do to combat my day is catch a bus (I don't drive) into town or like just go for a walk with some nice music. It's different for everyone but I recommend this approach and hope your day gets better.

[blossom]

Thanks for the suggestion.

[Hunchdebunch]

In regards to regulating your breathing, that's a good approach. I don't know if this is helpful to you or to anyone else here, but I struggle with the whole counting how many seconds to breathe in and how many to breathe out, so what I've often done is combine regulating my breathing with a sort of mantra; I breathe in while thinking the words 'breathe in' fairly slowly in my mind, and then hold that for just a moment before breathing out while thinking 'and breathe out, everything will be fine'. The longer second sentence helps make sure my exhale is longer, which I've heard is calming, and it also has the benefit of being some reassurance to myself, no matter how small that reassurance may seem at the time. I've mostly ended up using this technique when I can't sleep due to anxiety, but it's useful in general as well.

[Tristyn]

Hey Hunchdebunch.

That's some real good advice there.





Hi Blossom.

I feel ya on the whole overwhelmed thing. I admit that I got so overwhelmed the other day, I spliced my arms and legs a bit. While I would highly advise against that, I think something else I could have done was a thought technique my social worker at dialysis told me about where in your mind you scream "stop" and then find something else to do to get your mind off of whatever is bothering you. Like do what it is you like even if you don't feel like it! I hope that helps, even a little bit.

[Kulena]

Wow what a day you sounds like Murphy law what can go wrong will.
I to had went to my Doctor with my HRT recommendation just to get referred to Portland a 90 min drive for me.
So Portland calls me gives the earliest next opening 10\21/16 almost 7 months out.
Couldn't help but think if the hole world gone Trans, and if so how much better the world would be with everyone being happy and there true selfs. Hang in there girl, and keep moving forward

[blossom]

Thank you everyone.

[HappyMoni]

Hey Blossom,

I know things stink right now, but keep in mind the long haul. You will get to where you want to get. What you are facing is hard to deal with, I know. There will come a time when you don't even remember the sorry day like you had. You have to stay positive.
Moni

[blossom]

Thank you Moni