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"Reasons" for FFS - Beyond "Passing"?

Started by RebeccaM, April 02, 2016, 02:40:11 PM

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RebeccaM

Hi everyone,

I'm having FFS with Dr. Rossi in Buenos Aires in a little bit over 2 weeks - I posted in the general Transsexual forum about this. I wanted to ask a question to folks who have had FFS or who are considering it. The question relates to the reasons for getting FFS. I feel (though I haven't done any research) that the most common reason for getting FFS is to enhance one's ability to "pass" as a cis woman and thus gain some of the privilege and peace of mind (as well as all the other ancillary benefits) that come with being seen as a "cis woman" in this cissexist society. But are there other reasons? I ask because I feel that this is definitely the case for me and part of the reason why I've waited until age 35 (almost 20 years after coming out and my initial socially transition), because I felt I couldn't justify getting FFS given some of the privilege I already had.

In short, I "pass" as a cis woman 99%+ of the time but, as we all know the uncertainty of what others think/read onto our bodies is a complex and perhaps dangerous rabbit hole to dive down. Nonetheless, I can count on one hand every year the number of times that I am overtly misgendered. (Tho perhaps has as much to do with my short platinum hair and tendency towards hoodies?!)

That being said, I have long had an issue with my forehead (including the orbit shape of my eyes and the depth of my eyes in the orbits) as well as, to a lesser extent, the bridge of my nose. As you can see in my 'transition bio' below I started hormones at age 22 but this was a good 6 years since I first came out socially as 'trans' (though I never really used that word specifically for several years as there wasn't the same language or accessibility to community back in the pre-internet mid/late 1990's as there is now). I wasn't able to find a doctor to save my life to start me on hormones and even if I did, I think I had a lot of ambivalence about actually physically transition. I realized that male puberty wasn't for me shortly after it started (I was a late bloomer so this was like age 15 or so). So, in short, I had my 6 'lost years', as I've termed it, where I was sorta in limbo gender wise. During that time I watched my body masculinize in various ways, in particular my face.

And so I feel that for me, the main reason to have FFS is to try to reverse some of these changes that my body underwent during this time when I wasn't able to get the support that I needed to be able to prevent these changes from happening in the first place. There's obviously some things that I can't change (like my voice, the extra couple of inches that I gained in height tho I did starve & chain smoke my way through most of high school to try to stunt my growth) but it feels like these things are modifiable. And while I've worked through a lot of the 'regret' and anger that I had in not living in a world that allowed me to transition when I reached puberty, I feel that this is really important as I've never been able to fully accept these parts of my features - EVEN IF they don't prevent me from passing as a cis woman.

So...thanks for reading all this! I'm just wondering if others have had similar motivations for seeking and getting FFS?

I'm also aware of how complex this can get, because if I already pass as a cis woman, then how do I know when enough is enough, and when to stop?
(Tho how does ANYONE - is passing enough, if so, how much, that's probably a much bigger conversation that's been had again and again so don't wanna re-open it). For the record, I don't think this will be a concern but I do know that in my case I likely have as much  body dysmorphia (as a result of the 6 year delay in my transition) as actual gender dysphoria 

Thanks so much - looking forward to reading others experiences.

Bex

FYI, surgeons I consulted were in agreement. I was 'assessed' (mostly via the internet but also in person) by several different surgeons, they are all in agreement that I would definitely benefit from a Type-III forehead reconstruction with the regular hairline adjustment and brow lift and all say (in these or similar words) that I have a very severe "masculine" forehead (with a 15mm+ distance between the glabella and eyelid surface). They also think a rhinoplasty and upper lip lift would also be very helpful in feminizing my features. Some have also suggested possibly some chin contouring. I have decided on the first 3 procedures and will make a decision on the 4th when I see Dr. Rossi in person in 2 weeks time. 

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Rebecca
Toronto, ON
35 years old
Transitioned socially 1997
Hormones since 2002
Orchiectomy - Toronto (Klotz) 2005
GAS (vaginoplasty) - Montreal (Brassard) 2008
FFS (forehead/nose) - Buenos Aires (Rossi) April 20, 2016!!!
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Snöfrost

I did FFS in Stockholm, In September 2015. Why I did it was, because I didn't trust people saying that I pass as a female. But most of the time I did pass as a female. Also I didn't liked how my forehead and chin looked. Something I wanted to do aswell was the nose, but I am not sure if I really want to do it.

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Denise

I'm just starting (54 yo) so FFS is a 12-18 months out for me - but I will definitely have some done.  Why?  So I can look myself in the mirror.  I know - vain but if you don't like what you see in the mirror, it's hard to love oneself.

I also broke my nose in high school and it's crooked - So while I'm there...
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KayXo

There are risks with FFS like losing sensation and you could end up looking worse than before. Sometimes, wanting more can backfire. You already pass so well so you could well regret it after. You also need to ask yourself, is it in your head or do you absolutely really need it to function in society which it doesn't seem you do. I personally don't trust feedback from FFS surgeons for the obvious reasons.

My 2 cents...trying to fix something that is psychological with surgery will not solve the issue.

Sincerely and lovingly,
Kay :), a fellow Canadian
I am not a medical doctor, nor a scientist - opinions expressed by me on the subject of HRT are merely based on my own review of some of the scientific literature over the last decade or so, on anecdotal evidence from women in various discussion forums that I have come across, and my personal experience

On HRT since early 2004
Post-op since late 2005
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April_TO

I think if it makes you happy why not. I understand the pull of completely eliminating any gender markers that remind us of our old selves.

However, as Kay mentioned in her post that no amount of surgery can fix our mental hang ups and I agree. I have seen many women in different threads that did every single surgery found in a textbook and still felt empty inside.

I wish you good luck and hope you find your fulfillment through this journey.

Btw, we live in the same city :)






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Wild Flower

To become undeniably woman.

Which is why I will one day do vocal surgery, hip implants.
"Anyone who believes what a cat tells him deserves all he gets."
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warlockmaker

Hi there. I'm a lot older but amazingly healthy with a long life gene...my family tend to live past 100 yrs old, my dad just turned 94 yesterday. Even as a male the family are all terribly vain ....I had a face lift at 60. So today I'm post op and had ffs. Why ffs? Not to pass, I'm proud of being tg but to assuage my vanity and desire to look young.

As we age the brow prominence inceases, the nose seem to have grown, skin sags, crows feet appear and the lips shrink.. so for me it was an anti aging surgery ...not to pass but to feel good. 
When we first start our journey the perception and moral values all dramatically change in wonderment. As we evolve further it all becomes normal again but the journey has changed us forever.

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KayXo

Quote from: Wild Flower on April 02, 2016, 08:48:14 PM
To become undeniably woman.

Which is why I will one day do vocal surgery, hip implants.

None of these guarantee a good result especially vocal surgery. Not impressed with results so far.

We don't become women, we are women. ;)

Quote from: warlockmaker on April 02, 2016, 10:38:17 PM
As we age the brow prominence inceases, the nose seem to have grown, skin sags, crows feet appear and the lips shrink.. so for me it was an anti aging surgery ...not to pass but to feel good. 

I don't see how brow prominence can increase with age.  ??? Hormones, enough of them, can slow down this ageing process but there is also only so much they can do. Ageing is inevitable. Personally, I've seen plenty of women resort to surgery in order to look younger but few results impress me. Just my opinion. Glad it worked out for you, though. :)
I am not a medical doctor, nor a scientist - opinions expressed by me on the subject of HRT are merely based on my own review of some of the scientific literature over the last decade or so, on anecdotal evidence from women in various discussion forums that I have come across, and my personal experience

On HRT since early 2004
Post-op since late 2005
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RebeccaM

Quote from: KayXo on April 02, 2016, 06:21:08 PM
There are risks with FFS like losing sensation and you could end up looking worse than before. Sometimes, wanting more can backfire. You already pass so well so you could well regret it after. You also need to ask yourself, is it in your head or do you absolutely really need it to function in society which it doesn't seem you do. I personally don't trust feedback from FFS surgeons for the obvious reasons.

My 2 cents...trying to fix something that is psychological with surgery will not solve the issue.

Sincerely and lovingly,
Kay :), a fellow Canadian

Thx for the thoughts Kay - I appreciate your candour. I understand what you're saying and as I iterated I'm not oblivious to the complexities and allure that this can have. That said, I feel far from "empty inside", just more of acutely aware of these features, particularly the forehead/brow.

As a nurse I think there's particular scrutiny on how we look, which sucks but is true, and even though I graduated at the top of my class from the best nursing school in Canada I haven't been able to find work for 6 months. So maybe it is about functioning? I don't know for certain if it's because they know I'm trans (my CV with all my work in the community doesn't help) and employers are never going to come out and say it. But something's up. I feel I've done all I can to heal from trauma, and strengthen my CV (distance ed, etc...) so am thinking maybe this will help.

Thanks again,

Rebecca
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RebeccaM

Quote from: warlockmaker on April 02, 2016, 10:38:17 PM
Hi there. I'm a lot older but amazingly healthy with a long life gene...my family tend to live past 100 yrs old, my dad just turned 94 yesterday. Even as a male the family are all terribly vain ....I had a face lift at 60. So today I'm post op and had ffs. Why ffs? Not to pass, I'm proud of being tg but to assuage my vanity and desire to look young.

As we age the brow prominence inceases, the nose seem to have grown, skin sags, crows feet appear and the lips shrink.. so for me it was an anti aging surgery ...not to pass but to feel good.

I get that! Though you'll probably laugh as I'm 35 and look at least 7 years younger, I think that these features I noted have gotten worse with time, or at least seem to stand out perhaps as I lose some of the 'youthful plumpness' that my face used to have. There's definitely an element of just general looking better. And I hate it, but it's true nonetheless, that to have success, it definitely helps to be 'attractive' by conventional standards. And saddled with student debt and struggling to find work even with 3 university degrees, I feel a lot of pressure in that regard. Thanks for chiming in!

Rebecca
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RebeccaM

[quote author=KayXo
I don't see how brow prominence can increase with age.  ??? Hormones, enough of them, can slow down this ageing process but there is also only so much they can do. Ageing is inevitable. Personally, I've seen plenty of women resort to surgery in order to look younger but few results impress me. Just my opinion. Glad it worked out for you, though. :)
[/quote]

There are significant skeletal changes as well as, of course, tissue changes (fat, muscle) with aging. Some 'anti-aging' experts have, to the chagrin of many have highlighted for example how many of the 'undesirable' changes with aging are related to skeletal changes as much as tissue change. Bone is a living tissue, filled with blood and marrow, it's easy to forget how malleable it really is.
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cindianna_jones

I didn't even consider FFS because I couldn't afford it! Yes, there are things I would like to have changed but now I'm fine with my face. I do know there are long term effects to surgery and I'm thrilled I don't have to worry about them. With that said, you should decide for yourself. If you can fund it, want it, and are aware of the potential risks, then do it!
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Shanade

In my case, I am used to see my face as male so any part of it makes me feel like I am male. FFS would be a way to forget about my male self.
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KayXo

Quote from: RebeccaM on April 03, 2016, 12:34:47 PM
I don't know for certain if it's because they know I'm trans (my CV with all my work in the community doesn't help

Then don't mention this. See if it helps.

Quote from: RebeccaM on April 03, 2016, 12:38:13 PM
I'm 35 and look at least 7 years younger, I think that these features I noted have gotten worse with time, or at least seem to stand out perhaps as I lose some of the 'youthful plumpness' that my face used to have. There's definitely an element of just general looking better.

This, to me, indicates that perhaps you are undertreated with hormones as they should keep, even at your age and older, your face plump, soft looking and keep the angular characteristics away. Something is wrong here.


I am not a medical doctor, nor a scientist - opinions expressed by me on the subject of HRT are merely based on my own review of some of the scientific literature over the last decade or so, on anecdotal evidence from women in various discussion forums that I have come across, and my personal experience

On HRT since early 2004
Post-op since late 2005
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RebeccaM

Quote from: KayXo on April 04, 2016, 11:20:23 AM
Then don't mention this. See if it helps.

This, to me, indicates that perhaps you are undertreated with hormones as they should keep, even at your age and older, your face plump, soft looking and keep the angular characteristics away. Something is wrong here.

Thanks Kay - and I also received your PM however there isn't an option to reply to it (could be that I lack priviliges). I have recently lost 35 lbs because of chronic health issues and am approaching being underweight if I lose much more. But I digress. i have always looked young and still do not look amywhere near 35 - the "trans fountain of youth" i often joke about but it definitely seems true, not just for boys fmbut for gals as well!

To answer your question, i recently had to increase the frequency of my estradiol injections because of an interaction with another medication (Carbamazepine, anti-seizure drug) resulting in estrogen being cleared more quickly. I don't believe we're suppose to share specific doses but if I can figure out the PM tthing I would be happy to converse further.

From working in the field I find that physicians are often quite conservative and will use low estradiol (200 or less as) a a cutoff for a normal level, not recogbizing that in cis women its common to have 10-fold fluctuations in estradiol levels. I also find that most are steadfast opposed to using progesterone as an adjunct to estrogen. There is the thought that there is no conclusive eveidence that it offers any benefits wkth respect to feminization whilst it does have conclusive data showing its potential harms. These are their opinions, not my interpretations as a community or professional. I have P have benefits in enough people to at least consider it being worth the risk provided patients are given the choice and full informed consent. Anyhow, all that to say I finally obtained avRx for Profmgesterone last week and am hoping this will help with the weight loss, energy, sex drive, and facial/breast fullness. A lot to pin on a little spherical orb I realize but fingers crossed.

Anyhow, back to the topic at hand - REASONS FOR FFS:
It sounds like folks have a diverse array of reasons and that mine are not entirely unique. Prior to having surgery I will be certain to discuss the specific risks as I do NOT wantt to feel/look worse post-operatively than i did before (the immediate period obviously excluded).

I would contend that our sense of dysphoria is real regardless and exists independent (thoigh often closely intertwined it can be hard to parse apart) of gender attribution by others. Even if we lived in a society where cissexism and transphobia did not exost I believe many of us would still experience dysphoria at the features of our bodies that undergone change in response to testosterone, as is the case for me.

Thanks for your thoughts everyone. If there is anyone else who would like to chime in I'd love to hear your thogenderughts!

Rebecca
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Christine Eryn

I was passible and full time before my FFS procedures last year, but I still felt incomplete. My surgeries have made A WORLD of difference. There's nothing like grinding/reshaping bone and cartilage to get the look you should have been born with in the first place!  ;)
"There was a sculptor, and he found this stone, a special stone. He dragged it home and he worked on it for months, until he finally finished. When he was ready he showed it to his friends and they said he had created a great statue. And the sculptor said he hadn't created anything, the statue was always there, he just cleared away the small peices." Rambo III
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KayXo

Quote from: RebeccaM on April 04, 2016, 02:00:14 PM
i recently had to increase the frequency of my estradiol injections because of an interaction with another medication (Carbamazepine, anti-seizure drug) resulting in estrogen being cleared more quickly.

Have you considered the ketogenic diet for epilepsy? Studies have shown this diet to be safe. I can provide studies.

You can watch the movie "First Do No Harm" (1997), it features the well-known actress Meryl Streep. Also...

Front Pharmacol. 2012 Apr 9;3:59.

"The most notable example of a dietary treatment with proven efficacy against a neurological condition is the high-fat, low-carbohydrate ketogenic diet (KD) used in patients with medically intractable epilepsy. While the mechanisms through which the KD works remain unclear, there is now compelling evidence that its efficacy is likely related to the normalization of aberrant energy metabolism."

"The ketogenic diet (KD) is now a proven therapy for drug-resistant epilepsy (Vining et al., 1998; Neal et al., 2008), and while the mechanisms underlying its anticonvulsant effects remain incompletely understood (Hartman et al., 2007; Bough and Stafstrom, 2010; Rho and Stafstrom, 2011), there is mounting experimental evidence for its broad neuroprotective properties and in turn, emerging data supporting its use in multiple neurological disease states (Baranano and Hartman, 2008). Even in patients with medically refractory epilepsy who have remained seizure-free on the KD for 2 years or more, it is not uncommon for clinicians to observe that both anticonvulsant medications and the diet can be successfully discontinued without recrudescence of seizures (Freeman et al., 2007). This intriguing clinical observation forms the basis of the hypothesis that the KD may possess anti-epileptogenic properties."

"There is no longer any doubt that the KD is effective in ameliorating seizures in patients, especially children, with medically refractory epilepsy (Vining, 1999; Neal et al., 2008; Freeman et al., 2009). After its introduction in 1920, the KD was used as a first or second-line treatment for severe childhood epilepsy."

"The KD has now become an integral part of the armamentarium of most major epilepsy centers throughout the world (Kossoff and McGrogan, 2005)."

"Kang et al. (2007) reported that the KD was both safe and effective in 14 pediatric patients with established mitochondrial defects in complexes I, II, and IV, all of whom had medically intractable epilepsy. These authors observed that half of these patients became seizure-free on the KD, and only four patients failed to respond."

QuoteFrom working in the field I find that physicians are often quite conservative and will use low estradiol (200 or less as) a a cutoff for a normal level, not recogbizing that in cis women its common to have 10-fold fluctuations in estradiol levels.

Physicians ignore the studies in men with prostate cancer (aged 49-91) where high levels of estradiol, up to 2,500 pmol/L, (patch or injection) were found not to be conducive to increased health risks and where actually the treatment proved to be beneficial. One study in particular in transwomen, from Germany, found high doses of intramuscular estrogen not to be associated with a higher incidence of thrombosis, as opposed to earlier studies which used non-bio-identical estrogens. Pregnant women have very high levels, up to 75,000 pg/ml (275,000 pmol/L) and yet risk of embolism remains VERY low, under 0.2% while the risk increases post-partum, when levels drop abruptly.

Cas Lek Cesk. 1997 Jul 30;136(15):468-72.

"Incidence of thromboembolism in pregnancy is relatively low regarding to many predisposing factors, inclusively the thrombophilia induced changes in coagulation."

"This data supports the concept that the decreased serum levels of cytoadhesive molecules of sP-selectin and sE-selectin are dependent on serum estrogen levels and together with a new, estrogen induced, equilibrium of the fibrinolytic system suggest an explanation for the relatively low incidence of thromboembolic events in pregnancy. Decrease of cytoadhesive molecules may be one of explanations of favourable effects of estrogens on the development of atherosclerotic vascular changes."

Ann Intern Med. 2005 Nov 15;143(10):697-706.

"Among pregnant women, the highest risk period for venous thromboembolism and pulmonary embolism in particular is during the postpartum period." (When estrogen levels drop and are low)

QuoteI also find that most are steadfast opposed to using progesterone as an adjunct to estrogen. There is the thought that there is no conclusive eveidence that it offers any benefits wkth respect to feminization whilst it does have conclusive data showing its potential harms.

There was a study done many years ago showing that progestative agents used in transsexual women were needed for full development of breasts (acini/alveoli and lobules). Also, science, in general, shows quite unequivocally that in women and in mammals, progesterone is required for the stimulation of lobulo-alveolar structures in the breast.

I've personally benefited from it, in terms of helping mood, sleeping, softening my skin/hair (progesterone increases sebum/oil production, estrogen decreases it), increasing fat deposition in the female areas (buttocks), plumped up my face and my breasts, made my breasts rounder. Progesterone can also counter water retention due to its antimineralocorticoid effects and this may benefit people with high blood pressure. Many transwomen have seen a clear benefit from it too.

About conclusive data showing its potential harms, this is false. Ask the doctors to provide you the studies and you will notice those studies always include the use of a progestogen called medroxyprogesterone acetate, different in molecular structure than the bio-identical progesterone that women produce in great quantity during the luteal phase and during pregnancy (up to 200-300 ng/ml). If indeed progesterone caused great harm, then how does one explain ciswomen getting away with such high levels during pregnancy or during the second half of their menstrual cycle? Wouldn't the fetus be harmed as well? Progesterone is also prescribed to pregnant women, sometimes in quite high doses, to prevent miscarriage or preterm abortion.

Studies have shown the differences between progesterone and other progestogens, especially the one that has shown to cause harm ( increase breast cancer risk, clotting and cardiovascular problems), to be significant.

. Progesterone has shown to NOT be to associated with an increase in breast cancer risk.

. Progesterone does not adversely affect liver or increase coagulation, as opposed to medroxyprogesterone acetate (MPA), which due to its significant glucocorticoid action, can increase the risk of thrombosis.

. Progesterone's byproduct, allopregnanolone (not present with medroxyprogesterone acetate) has shown to have anti-depressive and anxiolytic properties versus medroxyprogesterone acetate, shown to sometimes cause depression in some.

. Progesterone is neither androgenic nor does it lead to increased androgen levels as opposed to medroxyprogesterone acetate which somewhat "triggers" androgen receptors, which explains why it opposes oral estradiol's beneficial effects on HDL while progesterone doesn't.

. Progesterone has been shown to either not affect vasculature or add to the beneficial effect that estradiol exerts on blood vessels, being a vasodilator as well. It can reduce blood pressure. On the other hand, medroxyprogesterone acetate can negatively impact on cardiovascular health and was associated with an increased risk of coronary heart disease in women taking it in the WHI study of 2003.

You need to explain to those doctors that medroxyprogesterone acetate is NOT the same as progesterone, apart from both having progestogenic effects and that the studies they refer to as showing conclusively the harms associated with "progesterone" did not actually comprise of progesterone but rather an analogue with very differents effects on the body.

Maturitas 46S1 (2003) S7–S16

"Basically all progestins do have only one effect in common, the progestogenic effect on the estrogen-primed endometrium of the rabbit, but there are large differences between progestins in the multitude of other biological effects elicited."

Clin Ther. 1999 Jan;21(1):41-60; discussion 1-2.

"All comparative studies to date conclude that the side effects of synthetic progestins can be minimized or eliminated through the use of natural progesterone, which is identical to the steroid produced by the corpus luteum."

"The results of published clinical studies show minimal or no changes in lipid profile, blood pressure, or carbohydrate metabolism during treatment with oral micronized progesterone.28 This safety profile contrasts with the reported negative effects of some synthetic progestins, including adverse effects on lipid metabolism and glucose tolerance. Several studies, including the 3-year prospective PEP1 study, 4, 28 have shown that oral micronized progesterone significantly improves metabolic tolerance compared with such progestins as MPA.52,54,58"

CLIMACTERIC 2005;8(Suppl 1):3–63

"As progestogens differ in their hormonal pattern, e.g. glucocorticoid, androgenic or antiandrogenic, or antimineralocorticoid activity, there may be differences between the various progestogens regarding the clinical response to HRT."

Experimental and Clinical Psychopharmacology 2007, Vol. 15, No. 5, 427–444

"It is important to note that although progesterone and synthetic progestins are used for similar purposes, these may not exert similar modulatory effects on target organs, and each progestin molecule may have specific effects on neuroendocrine action (Bernardi et al., 2006)."

Med Hypotheses. 2001 Feb;56(2):213-6.

"natural progesterone--now available in micronized oral preparations--does
not oppose the hepatic effects of oral estrogen, and moreover may be
preferable to androgenic progestins with respect to vascular
function."

Many doctors unfortunetaly have not taken the time to thoroughly investigate the matter but rather repeat what they have been told. I can, if you wish, send you a summary of findings with progesterone with its benefits, risks, etc. showing all what I've asserted above, in much more detail with supporting evidence. You can then show this to your doctors.

QuoteAnyhow, all that to say I finally obtained avRx for Profmgesterone last week and am hoping this will help with the weight loss, energy, sex drive, and facial/breast fullness. A lot to pin on a little spherical orb I realize but fingers crossed.

Progesterone tends to be inhibitory as opposed to excitatory (i.e. estrogen) and thus can have a significant impact on seizure activity. Do realize that you may need to take a higher dose of it than normal (your doctors should be aware of this) as the anti-seizure medication you are taking increases its metabolization and rate of elimination.

Progesterone should help, hopefully but you need enough of it to have a significant effect. Food increases its absorption two-fold.

Neurology. 2014 Jul 22;83(4):345-8.

"To determine whether allopregnanolone (AP) may mediate seizure reduction in progesterone-treated women with epilepsy."

"The findings support AP as a mediator of seizure reduction in progesterone-treated women who have a substantial level of perimenstrually exacerbated seizures."

Neurol Sci. 2011 May;32 Suppl 1:S31-5.

"Oestrogen and progesterone have specific receptors in the central nervous system and are able to regulate neuronal development and plasticity, neuronal excitability, mitochondrial energy production, and neurotransmitter synthesis, release, and transport. On neuronal excitability, estradiol and progesterone seem to have an opposite effect, with estradiol being excitatory and progesterone and its derivative allopregnanolone being inhibitory. Estradiol augments N-methyl-D-aspartate-mediated glutamate receptor activity, while progesterone enhances gamma-aminobutyric acid-mediated chloride conductance. Sex steroid regulation of the balance of neuroexcitatory and neuroinhibitory activities may have a role in modulating clinical susceptibility to different neurological conditions such as migraine, catamenial epilepsy, premenstrual dysphoric disorder, and premenstrual syndrome."

Curr Neurol Neurosci Rep. 2011 Aug;11(4):435-42.

"Reproductive hormones have been found to have a role in the pathogenesis and treatment of seizures by also altering neuronal excitability, especially in women with catamenial epilepsy. The female reproductive hormones have in general opposing effects on neuronal excitability; estrogens generally impart a proconvulsant neurophysiologic tone, whereas the progestogens have anticonvulsant effects. It follows then that fluctuations in the levels of serum progesterone and estrogen throughout a normal reproductive cycle bring about an increased or decreased risk of seizure occurrence based upon the serum estradiol/progesterone ratio. Therefore, using progesterone, its metabolite allopregnanolone, or other hormonal therapies have been explored in the treatment of patients with epilepsy."

Methods Find Exp Clin Pharmacol. 2004 Sep;26(7):547-61.

"Generally, progesterone has antiseizure effects, while estrogens facilitate seizure susceptibility. The progesterone metabolite allopregnanolone has been identified as a key endogenous neurosteroid with powerful antiseizure activity. Allopregnanolone is a potent, positive allosteric modulator of GABA(A) receptors. Progesterone and allopregnanolone exposure and withdrawal affects GABA(A) receptor plasticity. In animal models, withdrawal from chronic progesterone and, consequently, of allopregnanolone levels in brain, has been shown to increase seizure susceptibility. Natural progesterone therapy is proven to be effective in women with epilepsy."

Epilepsia. 2001 Feb;42(2):216-9.

"These data are consistent with a role for allopregnanolone in the control of neuronal excitability and seizures."

J Pharmacol Exp Ther. 1999 Feb;288(2):679-84.
Finasteride, a 5alpha-reductase inhibitor, blocks the anticonvulsant activity of progesterone in mice.


"Progesterone is an effective anticonvulsant against pentylenetetrazol (PTZ) seizures. This action is hypothesized to require the metabolic conversion of progesterone to the gamma-aminobutyric acidA receptor potentiating neuroactive steroid allopregnanolone by 5alpha-reductase isoenzymes followed by 3alpha-hydroxy oxidoreduction."

"The anticonvulsant activity of progesterone against PTZ-induced seizures can be blocked by 5alpha-reductase inhibition, providing strong evidence that the anticonvulsant effect of the steroid in this model is mediated by its active metabolite allopregnanolone."

For this reason, finasteride/dutasteride would perhaps not be best for you.

QuoteAnyhow, back to the topic at hand - REASONS FOR FFS:
It sounds like folks have a diverse array of reasons and that mine are not entirely unique. Prior to having surgery I will be certain to discuss the specific risks as I do NOT wantt to feel/look worse post-operatively than i did before (the immediate period obviously excluded).

I would contend that our sense of dysphoria is real regardless and exists independent (thoigh often closely intertwined it can be hard to parse apart) of gender attribution by others. Even if we lived in a society where cissexism and transphobia did not exost I believe many of us would still experience dysphoria at the features of our bodies that undergone change in response to testosterone, as is the case for me.

I wouldn't resort to FFS just yet. The right hormones in the right amounts might help.
I am not a medical doctor, nor a scientist - opinions expressed by me on the subject of HRT are merely based on my own review of some of the scientific literature over the last decade or so, on anecdotal evidence from women in various discussion forums that I have come across, and my personal experience

On HRT since early 2004
Post-op since late 2005
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kittenpower

I wanted mind and body congruence, and my prominent brow along with my other masculine angular features was standing in the way of my happiness.
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Sebby Michelango

If you finds a good surgeon and if a FFS would make you happy, I would recommend it. But if there aren't any good surgeons to find or if you has a surgery phobia, I wouldn't recommend it so much.
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