Hi!

[keira166]

So I've posted only a few times before, without actually doing an introduction, so here it is:

My name is Keira (although I don't want to forsake my name Tom either), and I'm Questioning.  I'm in my late twenties, married for basically 10 years, no kids, and coming out to my wife as at least questioning my gender next week when I can see her again (lotsa nerves, emotions, and expectations for things to be weird, I've been away for work for the past 6 months, booo). 

I still don't understand the difference between a masculine woman and a trans man, which I think means I don't have a strong gender identity (man and woman has no meaning to me without masculine/fem, etc, I realize it is important to others!!).  I'm pre-everything, but I have no desire ever to have SRS (HRT and other actions might be okay, one thing at a time)  But I really don't like masculinity (makes me feel terrible, no connections, I get thrown off, etc) and I like what I feel is feminine, so I think that's my gender expression.  I'm still unsure about it all, and life in general, but whatevs.

In a perfect world, I think I would wanna present somewhere between androgynous and a femme lesbian, but this aint that world yet...

I've started seeing a Gender Therapist, which is pretty helpful so far (but I'm still really new to everything sooo...)

Nice meeting everybody!

[V M]

Hi Keira 

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[DogSpirit]

Hi, Keira.

You've found a good place to help you along your path of self-discovery. Great people, great information.

I hope everything goes well when you finally get back with your wife. If this is out of the blue for her, she might need some time to wrap her brain around it, so early reactions are just that-- reactions.

It's all so very meaningful and personal and important, this identity stuff. I like the song line about "the ballerina cowboy"-- anything is possible.

-- Sue

[gennee]

A hearty welcome to Susan's, Keira.

[keira166]

Thanks!

Hi, Keira.

You've found a good place to help you along your path of self-discovery. Great people, great information.

I hope everything goes well when you finally get back with your wife. If this is out of the blue for her, she might need some time to wrap her brain around it, so early reactions are just that-- reactions.

It's all so very meaningful and personal and important, this identity stuff. I like the song line about "the ballerina cowboy"-- anything is possible.

-- Sue

I've been trying to at least open up that I've been meeting trans folk, reading gender lit, that kinda thing (while not actually saying anything about myself), to kind of warm her up and so I'm not coming out of the blue completely.  I've wanted to come out since I really started questioning, but I was worried about those reactions over the phone.  This way, if her reaction is to slap me, she at least can have that reaction .  But hopefully not.

[DogSpirit]

This way, if her reaction is to slap me, she at least can have that reaction .  But hopefully not.

<big grin> Yeah, hopefully not.

-- Sue