Yesterday i had another wonderful session with my Therapist. She is so encouraging. After many false starts and running away from my dysphoria, it has finally caught up with me again. But this time i have decided to beat it and live my life as i have always wanted to, as a woman.
I was first planning to start HRT then come out to my wife, but my therapist has convinced me otherwise. In the next few weeks i will reveal Davina to friends, family and colleagues. I had a sleepless night as a result of it.
My therapist put it quite bluntly to me. If i dont transition now, i will do it one day. Better to get on with it now. I finally agree. as i said to her, that in the last few weeks since i finally decided to transition, my life is coming together. I am become a better person physically and mentally. As she said, this is me making peace with the fact that i NEED to transition to a woman and spend the rest of my life as Davina.
I had to just check once more to make sure i was doing the right thing. I asked if i should try and work on my marriage or transition. She did not answer it directly, but did say. ´´Would a cis boy be talking to me about the things you are´´. No. She said. ´´there is your answer´´.
I cant wait to transition now. Its long overdue.
Luv
Davina
