Schooling Venting&fear

[Midnightstar]

I'm going to be going back to school and trying to get my GED but there's a problem to do that and feel comfortable i'm going to have to come out to the teachers so I can present myself as a male to other students. The person I would have to go up to and speak with about the proper pronouns being used well they used to be my principal of my old telemetry school and knew me for a very long time as female.
I haven't really been open about being transgender to anybody outside of my family or close friends iv'e even had others tell people for me so i never really had the guts to be bravely telling people anything. And here I am about to tell these teachers i am trans. Also it is eventually it's going to get around I live in a very small place and I can't control what happens next.
I could definitely stay hidden but I don't want to avoid who I am and I don't want to hide everything about me as a person that feels wrong. There isn't any advice a person can give i have noticed that lately. Most topics are about my dysphoria or what's happening in my life and most of the subjects are  something that I just have to deal with or overcome. I don't know what to ask anymore other then talk and speak about whats wrong or happening or find people who have been there hence why i'm on a support site i guess. So Have you ever came to that point in your transition or your life where you realize there wasn't anything you could do but make a decision for your future and then wait? And you realize that no matter how much support you can get nothing can be decided for you so you end up just sitting there hoping everything will work out? Well, that's me I literally feel powerless and if the word gets out: I even have the social skills most people do but i already image me alone sitting there trying to figure out how to answer somebody's question. I can just imagine it all happening even though it is not possible for me to know what is going to happen. And on top of that this increasing amount of dysphoria is becoming ridiculous! even something as simple as my arms that I actually used to like and didn't bother me is now like looking at something that doesn't fit my body. There is so much that is wrong with everything around me right now I just don't know how to process anything on top of everything else.


(I apologize for my bad spelling and grammar)

[Cindy]

I think this is my third response, I deleted the others.

I had stories of my transition. My fears. My school horrors.

But I kept reading your posts and this one.

You are a young man forging his life. OK biology got stuffed up along the way. But you are a man forging his life.

Men and women face times in their life when they stand for their principles. It may be the time when you see someone being beaten up, and you intervene. It may be when you see someone being discriminated against, and you say 'No, that is wrong' and intervene.

It may be when you are at the store cashier area and someone has no money to pay for their groceries, and you tell the cashier to put it on your bill.

Why do we do these things?

Because we are human and we look after each other and we stand for our rights and the rights of others.

You have a choice. Stand for your rights and face the storm. Or hide.

Why hide? Because you are not strong enough? No one is.

Because you fear? We all fear.

Why stand up and be you?

Well one, you are you and that is lovely and important. You have the right to be you, and damn anyone who has an issue with that.

Will it be easy? No.

Hiding seems easy. I tried, many of us try. It isn't easy, it hurts.

Can you do this? Only you can answer that.

But I think I know the answer; I've read your posts.

Cindy

[Midnightstar]

I think this is my third response, I deleted the others.

I had stories of my transition. My fears. My school horrors.

But I kept reading your posts and this one.

You are a young man forging his life. OK biology got stuffed up along the way. But you are a man forging his life.

Men and women face times in their life when they stand for their principles. It may be the time when you see someone being beaten up, and you intervene. It may be when you see someone being discriminated against, and you say 'No, that is wrong' and intervene.

It may be when you are at the store cashier area and someone has no money to pay for their groceries, and you tell the cashier to put it on your bill.

Why do we do these things?

Because we are human and we look after each other and we stand for our rights and the rights of others.

You have a choice. Stand for your rights and face the storm. Or hide.

Why hide? Because you are not strong enough? No one is.

Because you fear? We all fear.

Why stand up and be you?

Well one, you are you and that is lovely and important. You have the right to be you, and damn anyone who has an issue with that.

Will it be easy? No.

Hiding seems easy. I tried, many of us try. It isn't easy, it hurts.

Can you do this? Only you can answer that.

But I think I know the answer; I've read your posts.

Cindy

Thank you that made me smile