Hello, Ashley,
Welcome to Susan's.
I have read your posting carefully and may I also suggest that you find a gender therapist and start there? If you are truly transsexual you can either do it safely and in the accepted way by including therapists and doctors in your plans or you can try it without such help and risk failure, including serious illness.
Sorry to be such a pooh but if I didn't tell this to you I would have made a huge error. It's nice to be welcome someplace and it's even better to stay well and share your experiences with us.
Wing Walker