Many of us felt this way. I've repressed so much of my childhood, especially my early childhood, that I might as well have sprung, partially formed, into existence at 12 years old. Even now, after nearly 2 years of medical transition, I sometimes, mostly late at night, think I may be fooling myself. Then I remember how I felt 3 years ago as opposed to how I feel now, and I know that this is better. HRT seems to change two things, how our brains work, making them work smoother and less chaotically, and how people perceive us. It doesn't change our core, only therapy or stubbornness can do that. It does make the bad times easier to survive. At least it does for me.
