I've "befriended" a few girls online. Several of them are very famous. One is an award-winning entertainer. She even stood up for me when she thought I was bothered by being misgendered. I wasn't but it felt good to feel accepted into the group even if I am only a fan watching from the sides. Several of us had a discussion in chat about the nature of the fan-entertainer relationship. Some of the others were bothered by one of the other's comments that people in the entertainer's position are unattainable and we will never be more than just a face in the crowd to them.
While that point doesn't bother me as much, for me, it's much more similar to you. I'm at three months while they are all at a year+ and present much better than myself. However, my chatmates are in similar positions to myself. One has yet to start her hrt and the other I think is around where I am. I guess what I'm getting at is that, for me, this is where I get to be me. They don't know who I was, though I'm 60% certain one to the streamers is a former client of mine. I'm only three months in and my body hasn't quite caught up to my mind.
