Thank you all for replies

Quote from: Laura_7 on December 16, 2015, 05:59:57 AM
Its how you identify and how you would like your body to be. And how you would like to be perceived.
Too difficult question. I want the perception of my self to be real and reasonably accurate.

Quote from: Laura_7 on December 16, 2015, 05:59:57 AM
Supposed there is a spectrum from male to female.
Where do you lie on that spectrum, and does it change ? If so, how much ?
*shrug*
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-would you like a bit more male body to be a bit more happy ?
A bit no, a fully functional one yes. But this is, I think, because I alredy have an athlethic and tall body, and and am reasonably a non-lady socially. In the past I used to excersice to make my body like that.
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What gives you joy ? You might try small changes to hair and clothing style.
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In terms of gender I don't know, and I don't know what kind of style changes I could make, although I like the approach
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Well in the end its up to you...
but you might feel it...
and it might be a process and change over time...
hugs

And, it's good to hear it might change over time... *sigh of relief*
Quote from: suzifrommd on December 16, 2015, 06:22:55 AM
I asked my self two questions (of course I was going in the other direction, but the principle is similar).
How would I feel if I could never again be a man and do mannish things? (It would be strange but I could live with it.)
How would I feel if I could never again be female or do femaleish things? (Like a piece of me was cut off)
Hm, this is tricky, because I would not miss either being man or a woman, and feminine things too, but "mannish" things is something I tried to give up and t didn't do me any good. So, it counts as "like a piece of me was cut out". With feminine things, I sorta gave up on mmost of them, but I don't feel the lack. I could never again wear a dress or female jewelry and not be bothered in the slightest. But if someone took away the jeans and t-shirt uniform from my closet...

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That's what told me I was female at the core.
I still don't feel like a woman, despite living full-time as one for two and a half years. The important thing is that this is the way I want to live. My gender doesn't matter, how I want to live does.
Does that help?
Hm, then, I think I don't feel like either gender. I definitely don't feel like a woman, but live a one, although I'm not doing it the usual way. It also looks like I don't feel like a man either, but somewhat masculine. And I think, for now, how I live fits me.
So, yes, it helps, thank you