Cosmetic GCS gives you all the external appearance of female genitalia enough to be comfortable naked etc but no vaginal canal so you cannot be penetrated vaginally. This was my primary choice but I know I don't know everything I need to make a proper decision so I asked for help.
I have learned a lot on the other
thread to help me think.
For me personally I can't wait to be rid of what I've been given for 2 reasons. Firstly as my position is T can kill me so losing the testes removes a gun from my head that is there 24/7. Secondly and almost more importantly to me at this time is appearances as seeing
that staring back at me in the mirror every morning hurts me as a reminder I am different. For those that are happy with their genitalia fantastic but for me it's a problem. Also although I can tuck effectively enough without tape etc the fear of exposure is always there if in my swimsuit etc. In my regular clothes no worries there but there is minor movement during my aerobics class; nothing I can't adjust and everyone in class know about me but it still annoys me.
So for me GCS is a must and with all my musts I want it now, now, now, NOW!!!!!
But GCS comes in 2 main varieties Cosmetic gives all the looks but no penetrative sex and no need to dilate ever.
Slice and dice then that's it forever. That side really really appeals to me.
Full doesn't require as much concern or ongoing maintenance than dilation and over time the need to dilate reduces.
Initially you could be looking at having to dilate for 30 mins 4 times a day which is a massive time commitment but eventually you could be down to as little as once a week. It's manageable and it's also possible to reach orgasm from internal or external stimulation which could be a serious bonus.
The sex part of my brain is in lock down since last October as anytime there is any activity down there I kinda panic like it's going to take over again. This puts me in a poor position to give Full proper consideration from the sexual side as I have to operate on thought instead of feel whereas I'm usually the other way around these days. After GCS of either type that part of me will be unlocked at which point I could well place significantly more value on penetration or stimulation than I do now and that's the catch.
As aesthetics slowly moves towards a given instead of a fear of "will I look ok naked?" I am gradually going further in my thoughts particularly as regards my future. It's perfectly possible my wife and I could separate or "open" our relationship at some point which opens a whole side of life I had never expected to think about dating, relationships and of course sex. In the past it was sheer luck and a ridiculous set of coincidences that got my wife and I to meet and fortunately we just clicked so I never had to do dating but it could be fun (whole other debate in my head for that over disclosure but later).
With all things being possible I think I will end up going Full as I'll probably end up taking a bi label.
Despite my lockdown I am feeling nonsexual attraction to guys and when in pain I do flirt with the idea of being comforted in the arms of guys I know (yeah my laser guy was defo my first crush but although nothing would ever happen it's fun to play in your mind especially when feeling hurt or alone). I do want to be desired as a woman be that by a man or woman I don't actually mind. Want it all really. I want to be told I'm gorgeous and looked after at times like a proper princess.
Once the sex side of my brain is unlocked I might feel sexually attracted to men but I wouldn't know until after GCS.
As pointed out though on the other thread girl/girl relationships can also utilise the perks of Full GCS so basically when I grow up enough to handle sexual thoughts if sex is on the cards which it probably will be I really should just go for Full.
Love the net it's great to be able to think online and have others help fill in gaps.
