Triggers&Strange things more dysphoria maybe? (i don't know how to title this)

[Midnightstar]

I'm often feeling very uncomfortable watching other trans men transition
I'm also recently uncomfortable with something stranger...if i see a person fooling around in so called or (considered) feminine clothing just a joke i get super uncomfortable. Because i can't image myself wearing that clothing even though its not me. Its like anything that reminds me of "Female" is becoming a trigger and i don't know if it would be in the category of dysphoria but its a trigger for sure. Has anyone else had this feeling and is there a way to escape it? because i hate the feelings i hate looking at anything that reminds me of that. At the same time i may be going in and out of denial of some sort it just doesn't make sense together exactly. But yea, things are getting stronger in a different way for me and i don't know what to really do with the feelings but i'm uncomfortable with life at the moment.   

I don't want to say this has never happened
but not in this way and this time its just stronger? i don't know how you would put this into words.

[KarynMcD]

Actually it kinda sounds like you are behaving like a typical guy who doesn't want to have anything to do with anything feminine.

[Elis]

Agree with what Karen said. Although once I became comfortable accepting my gender identity and have the right hormones; I'm now much more comfortable with feminity and being feminine. People largely see me as male so I'm free to show that side of myself. Now instead of being triggered I find I'm hugely jeolous of men/nbs who aren't afraid to go outside looking very fem. So once you're on T this feeling should go away.

[Midnightstar]

Actually it kinda sounds like you are behaving like a typical guy who doesn't want to have anything to do with anything feminine.

Possible but not exactly, its more of a discomfort it can trigger a lot so i don't want to say that's it but its possible
however if that is the case i guess i dont know much about my own gender  my bad

[Midnightstar]

Agree with what Karen said. Although once I became comfortable accepting my gender identity and have the right hormones; I'm now much more comfortable with feminity and being feminine. People largely see me as male so I'm free to show that side of myself. Now instead of being triggered I find I'm hugely jeolous of men/nbs who aren't afraid to go outside looking very fem. So once you're on T this feeling should go away.

It confuses me because i'm already more of a feminine kind of guy to a degree 
and i was going to say i don't know on the jealous part then i realized what that word meant completely
and yea im jealous. I feel dumb not knowing my own emotions straight of the bat i apologies.

[Elis]

  It confuses me because i'm already more of a feminine kind of guy to a degree 
and i was going to say i don't know on the jealous part then i realized what that word meant completely
and yea im jealous. I feel dumb not knowing my own emotions straight of the bat i apologies.

That's fine; at least now you figured something else out about yourself.