I wonder

[Artesia]

I wonder if my wife already knows that I plan to talk about MtF hormones.  She has gotten real clingy lately, not that I mind because I love to cuddle.

I am also curious as to how long she has known what I have only recently figured out.  Thinking back, she has commented on my "girly" crying at movies, playing only female characters on my video games, and has even asked about getting a Bra for my man boobs.  I said no at the time, but now really wish I said yes.

I want to talk to a therapist before I do anything, just because I found out that there is a history of low T in my family, and if that is the cause of some of my thoughts, or if my fantasies that started back in my childhood are really me anting to be a woman.

Why is it I feel more confused the closer to my first therapy appointment?  Is it fear?  Is this common?

[Dena]

You might be reading her wrong. She may be feeling the pressure you are under and trying to comfort you or she could fear a divorce is in the works. As for your first therapy appointment, you are changing the direction of your life and that can be plenty scary for anybody.