I'm AFAB and recently I've been stuck on what my gender should be. I never really put it into question until about a year ago, where I realized maybe living life as a guy would be pretty cool. I remember feeling so sure about this, but now, for some reason, I'm really starting to doubt myself.
I really don't like looking at pictures of female anatomy. I guess I'm lucky to have a body that isn't as curvy as the pictures I see. I don't really like looking at male bodies either, though, but that's probably because most of them are super muscular bodies, which I don't want. Also, is it normal for a girl to want to have a body that's like the pictures I've seen of female anatomy?
I've realized that I actually kind of like how my breasts feel when I'm wearing clothes, but not so much when I'm naked. Since I've grown breasts in the first place, I forgot how it feels to have a flat chest, and I've never been given the chance to experiment with my gender thanks to my oh-so-supportive parents. I tried binding my breasts with duck tape, but it didn't even make much of a difference because of how big my breasts are.
I also don't mind being referred to as a female so much, but I remember hating it when my mother called me a woman or a young lady. It seems like my opinions towards being called these things have died down somehow.
TL;DR I have no idea what the hell to do.
