I'm sorry, I love being trans

[stephaniec]

I'm sorry I just can't help myself. I have a theory about myself that because I was an extreme radical hippie back in the day , I have developed an evolutionary  tangent extrapolation of being Hippie to being trans.  I think I have an innate disposition to fly a trans flag. I think the people in my neighborhood see me as trans because I transitioned here and the cycle of turnover for this neighborhood is 4- 6 years because I live across the street from a Big Ten University. Another funny trans experience , I was sitting outside a cafe and was concealed from peoples view by a restaurant sign, a group of office workers that work for the university and have seen me transition walked by and right before they past in front of me where they could see me they started a conversation about transgender people and I thought that pretty coincidental until I realized they could see my distinctive back pack because it was in a chair in clear view and could be seen yards away by someone walking in my direction. I just can't help it I'm Trans.

[Tessa James]

May I respectfully suggest you don't need to apologize then?  Sure, it's just a figure of speech but there is no shame in being just who we are and loving ourselves is part of being able to love one another IMO.   Your visibility is a gift to your community in that they have an opportunity for exposure to real and meaningful diversity.  Keep it up Hon!

Life has been so much better for me since transition.  Despite the challenges, transition has finally given me the feeling of being bodily and emotionally congruent and honest about who I am and the joys of feeling free.  Priceless values for me.

[mazzycakes]

I agree, no need to apologize! I spend so much time (sadly) wishing I could be cis, I think it's amazing for you to be truly proud of who you are!

[KyleeKrow]

I'm trans and proud of it! Plus no PMS. @.@ Dodged that bullet!

[RobynD]

I am truly proud of it and would post my image here if my spouse's career situation was ok for it. It is sad that there is still an issue with that anywhere.

None the less, i am proud and hide from nobody out in the world.

[suzifrommd]

I wouldn't say I love it - I hate being alone and being trans has been a major impediment to attracting a romantic partner. But it has been an amazing journey and becoming myself has moments so wonderful that no cisgender person (short of a heroin user maybe) has experienced anything like it.

[stephaniec]

my therapist always tells me how much better I look, she's known me from before transition. I really never would of believe I could be living my life

[KyleeKrow]

Yah I can't say that I've bothered with romance, but I do worry about it. I've just been enjoying my time alone by getting more in touch with myself.

[stephaniec]

well for me the choice was to be alone as I  was or to be alone as I should be. The answer was simple.

[kittenpower]

I'm not over the moon about it, but it has turned out to be some really delicious lemonade 🍹

[stephaniec]

well, the reality is you might as well enjoy what we got .it's a whole lot better the just 20 years ago and what I have now is a whole lot better than 3 years ago.

[HappyMoni]

Being born female would be the only thing better, but that is not possible. I'm not wasting any time mourning that. I am about 23 days away from living full time. I truly believe it is what will make me happy even with the inevitable bumps and bruises. I am not shy in admitting that I am scared. My biggest fear is that I will let myself down in some way. I am getting more proud of being trans every day, and I hope to be more confident soon. There are so many wonderful transgender people. I am lucky enough to be able to transition when others can't. I think a part of me wants to not let them down. All the people in tough situations on this site who have inspired me! I better make the best of my chance. Screw the fears, I'm gonna enjoy being trans.
Moni

[Maybebaby56]

Sorry Stephanie, I can't share your enthusiasm.  Yes, we have to make the best of it. No, I am not "proud" to be trans. It's just what I am.

Being trans is like having some disease.  You don't necessarily die from it, although you can, and you have a chance to beat it, through transition, and survive.  If you do, you may be a better person for it.  If not, God help you.

I have hope, but when your life is reduced to hope, you know it ain't exactly about hearts and flowers, is it?

I don't see an upside to being trans, other than having a path forward.

With kindness,

Terri

[stephaniec]

yes, there is a multiplicity of ways to view being trans

[Gemini]

I'm starting my transition at the age of 38, and I wish I could have started 30 years sooner. Or better yet, been born cis.

At the same time, as a transgender woman, I can't complain about the company I find myself in. There's a measure of consolation in the fact that I'm going through this at the same time so many other trans women are. And I am proud to be part of that group.

[stephaniec]

the group thing is pretty interesting, like for me having gone through the hippie revolution we were also a minority and were considered freaks by a section of society .

[kittenpower]

the group thing is pretty interesting, like for me having gone through the hippie revolution we were also a minority and were considered freaks by a section of society .

Being a hippie is a lifestyle choice, whereas having a body that does not match who you are at your very core is not a choice at all.

[KyleeKrow]

Perhaps it would be better for me to say that I am proud that I am strong enough to be trans. Although in a way, I feel like I was kinda meant to be trans, and not to be born as a cis woman. Although sometimes I do wish it. It would certainly be easier in many ways if I had been.

[herekitten]

Makes me happy that you feel positive and at peace with yourself.  It is with mixed emotion that I state I do not feel the same way.  To me, it would be like loving a disease or strange component of my body.  I view myself as simply a woman - no more and no less..  BUT a very strong and resilient woman who has achieved most of her dreams as a result of overcoming her physical challenges.  Don't know if that makes sense, but it is what it is. 

[stephaniec]

Being a hippie is a lifestyle choice, whereas having a body that does not match who you are at your very core is not a choice at all.

well, I don't necessarily agree in my particular case. I don't necessarily disagree in your average hippie alienation from society kind of thing, but the main and almost exclusively until idealism took hold reason for me to become a hippie was to let my hair grow so I could get closer to my inner self of being woman. I dreamt of having long hair and wearing the proper clothes since I was 4 so in my particular case there really was no choice. Others may have choice to try to improve society through telling the mainstream we ain't you, but for me being a Hippie was freedom from the male I suffered.from being forced to play. My idealism evolved to more than womanhood and towards my beloved Jesus without abandoning my true nature. I just learned to embrace my Lord which was a choice and to express my true nature  which was a genetic or biological determination to be the woman I am. I mean no harm to anyone opinion I'm just trying to express myself inorder to try to help others.