So I'm actually really happy today. Been the first time in a long time.
Me and my girlfriend spoke about me being trans again last night there were lots of tears and we were talking for hours.
She has been totally cool about it all and now said she just wants me to be happy and said even if she can't cope with the transition she will still be my bestfriend and help me through it all. However I'm pretty confident she would stay with me.
Anyway things are looking up! Going to arrange a doctors appointment soon and I got dressed up today and feel so good. The dysphoria is on a low and I just wanted to tell the world I'm happy!