We all question our decisions... if you don't well then you will get into all kinds of trouble.
Seems like yesterday.. a big dude sat down to talk about his life and figure out why he had always felt he was female.
Now, living, passing and full time I get to reflect on all that therapy... I get to now live the life I missed and it has really brought home points to ponder.
I must say, not everyone will feel the same so If you don't feel like me that does not mean your not transgender.. this is just my experience.
First... I was never a guy because.... I did not even know where the clit was... LOL.. naive little me. I do now because men show me and OMG I feel so sorry for men not having one..
I never did the masturbate thing like a guy.. I tucked.. and was always the woman.. nuff said.
I was a prude in bed... always being the woman but having to do the man thing... I did the best I could but was horrible in bed... I now know this because I have been in relationships with real men..
I felt this way since I was very little.. tried to get my boobs to grow... prayed to god for help.. all of that ->-bleeped-<-.
I think like a woman...... to complicated to explain ...
I always liked men but I was not gay... but I knew the truth... just was not going to be with a guy as a guy..
Being female for me is easy.. I act the part with no effort and I love being a tease..
I always felt vulnerable to men... its nature folks.. women feel this way... I admit it and I am able to submit to men.. and I like it.
I love being part of the sisterhood of females.. I am female.. I love everything associated with it.. including clothes, shopping and just being seen as me.
I get into that WTF thing and come right out of it because what is not between my legs now makes me so happy... laying in bed and a woman is amazing...
I sleep like a baby now.
I feel motherly to my BF..... totally.
I would never want to be a man.. ever ever again... no way baby....
I love my girlfriends....... and I am just like them... LOL.. that is bad and good.
Thats it but not all.... just a few thoughts ....
I am going out without make up today.. and I don't care at all... feels so good.
Keri
