I am so sorry you had a rough introduction. I guess I was lucky, I grew up poor and usually was dressed in my older sisters outgrown clothes. It just seemed the most natural thing, to dress as she did.
I really like girls, in fact it is fun to pretend to be one! And most girls like boys, so....
It just seems natural to me for you to be attracted to males when you are dressed all slutty. Rules, are for the un-imaginative.