First time wearing a dress! Ever! (in pictures)

[JMJW]

I've been really down all month. Today especially, felt so bad, was just lying down and feeling sorry for myself. You reach the point where you just can't take it anymore. So I decided to try put on some of my grandmother's  clothes. I was going to let it go this one time. i also put on some lipstick.

Immediately I felt like I was on cloud nine. I mean wow, this must be what cinderella felt like. This is like a moment of clarity. All the denial and self loathing washed away so easily. I still feel great. Even after taking it off and going back to guy mode. And believe me I didn't want to take it off.     I literally went from not caring about myself, not caring about my body, to loving myself in the space of an hour. I even did twirls in the mirror, spinning and jumping before I put it away.



The pout! Has to be done!



Look at the joy in my face.

I haven't had hormones or anything, and my standard response to dysphoria was to plain ignore it  but I have to think. What could they do for my mood if just this could do so much. Definitely going to try this again and a moment I'll never forget

[JenniferLopezgomez]

Be yourself, and be happy.

I remember the first time I went out in public in a dress some years ago.

The night wind lifted up my white full-length dress.

I was FREE AT LAST!

Isn't it wonderful ?

Hugs,

Jennifer xx

[SonadoraXVX]

Be free, but remember to be safe and sane too, is my motto too.

[SophiaBleu]

I was called "the girl who couldn't stop twirling"! Nothing like a fab dress to bring out the twirlies!   Congrats!!

[Dayta]

You've got such a pretty smile. The dress looks great on you, and it shows in your face.  It brightened my day a little. 

[WarGrowlmon1990]

You look great. It's amazing how dressing as our true selves can make the dysphoria fade.

[Tristyn]

I think anyone, male or female or however you identify, should have the right to wear whatever they want as long as it doesn't display any derisive remarks or racial slurs; you know, stuff like that. I will never understand why, for example, it's ok for those who identify as female to wear pants but those who identify as male cannot wear dresses according to society's norm laws. I think that's bull->-bleeped-<-. Though websites, like Sammy Dress, that advertise young and hip apparel are starting to advertise bottoms for guys that look so much like skirts; well that's a cool start to a possibly trans-accepting future.

If I want to identify as male (which I do) and wear a dress at the same time, well, dammit I should have that right. Yes, you do look great in your dress and you look so peaceful and happy too! You are expressing and letting your inner self out. Time to be who you are.

[JMJW]

Thanks to all! You know my grandmother noticed I was looking better than usual and she  asked if I was going to meet a girl.

And I was like "Kind of. Yeah."

Today I feel wide awake, with an energy that I didn't have before. It's lasted throughout the day. The one question that prompted me to do this - This side I've been repressing asked: Are you THAT afraid of me? Are you that shamed?

It's a fear of being laughed at.

[JMJW]

I said I'd try it again, went to my bro's and got the unopened make up kit and wig back.



Ain't it beautiful? Comes in a metal case and all!



I feel a newfound confidence, but I just can't lick the mind thing. I need to see a gender therapist. Not necessarily with the expectation to get hormones (Although that would be nice and it is free on the brittish NHS (i think) just to talk. I got so much bottled up inside.   

[wendylove]

I said I'd try it again, went to my bro's and got the unopened make up kit and wig back.



Ain't it beautiful? Comes in a metal case and all!



I feel a newfound confidence, but I just can't lick the mind thing. I need to see a gender therapist. Not necessarily with the expectation to get hormones (Although that would be nice and it is free on the brittish NHS (i think) just to talk. I got so much bottled up inside.   

Go for what feels right. I'm currently waiting for an appointment so I know what you mean.

[Raye]

I know I've mentioned somewhere being referred to as a crossdressing female from time to time by my customers. But I love wearing my shorties now and then in public because it shows off my feminine legs, but thing is I'm still seen as a guy for the 'some' parts. You just gotta work up the courage and be whoever you wanna be. It'll start to grow on you and you'll be like meh I'll wear what makes me feel good walking out the door.

[JMJW]

I've decided I'm going to go public at my college. The first time is the hardest, and as this will be my second year on an art degree, I will change in front of everyone as part of a performance art piece on the theme of gender. It'll be the culmination of the assignment alongside several drawings/illustrations on the topic. I know this is something I can do, and if I can change in front of other people, that would put a huge dent in my anxieties. 

[Raye]

I've decided I'm going to go public at my college. The first time is the hardest, and as this will be my second year on an art degree, I will change in front of everyone as part of a performance art piece on the theme of gender. It'll be the culmination of the assignment alongside several drawings/illustrations on the topic. I know this is something I can do, and if I can change in front of other people, that would put a huge dent in my anxieties. 

Possible, but you know people are very intelligent they would know your trans and you shouldn't be ashamed of it! ^^ When people knew I was at work it was a huge weight off my shoulders. But you'll sadly come across nay-sayers the best you can do is ignore it. Doing so will allow your self-esteem to flourish. And quite frankly being in college you don't need to focus on any of that. Focus on yourself and your grades and you'll be fine! ^^

[JMJW]

Possible, but you know people are very intelligent they would know your trans and you shouldn't be ashamed of it! ^^ When people knew I was at work it was a huge weight off my shoulders. But you'll sadly come across nay-sayers the best you can do is ignore it. Doing so will allow your self-esteem to flourish. And quite frankly being in college you don't need to focus on any of that. Focus on yourself and your grades and you'll be fine! ^^

For sure, grades must come first. I'm on a really good fine art course where I get to choose what art to make for the assignment.  This can range from illustration, film, sculpture, performance, or anything in between.

[AnxietyDisord3r]

I think college is a good place to come out. Young people's minds are more flexible and accepting. Of course there will be naysayers but there will be cheerleaders as well.

[Cassuk]

I think college is a good place to come out. Young people's minds are more flexible and accepting. Of course there will be naysayers but there will be cheerleaders as well.

I think it depends on what college and which area.

Being in college myself i do not feel like this would be a good place to come out as a transperson, Gay/lesbian sure since that is more invisible and accepted.

[Raye]

For sure, grades must come first. I'm on a really good fine art course where I get to choose what art to make for the assignment.  This can range from illustration, film, sculpture, performance, or anything in between.

For my AAS in Multimedia Design I had to take two Art Classes. I went with drawing because I'm pretty decent with it and it stood out from all the other ones I felt like were boring. We had like two models come in one was a rocking dude and the other a blossoming woman. Honestly I couldn't tell you which one I spent the most time on. They are utterly sexy to draw. I spent too much time outlining the curvature and roundness of the two I ended up making two androgynous people and kinda had a decent grade not the best.

As for the second it was photography and honestly I didn't think I was going to pass this class, but I have a fine eye for views and did pretty decently, although not understand the concepts was pretty difficult for me to say.

I'll have to submit some of my work for ya'll to critique sometime. ^^

[JMJW]

I told my mother (again) out of necessity, the support worker asked me if I prefered a male or female supporter, when I said female she asked why and if I had something against males. I said of course not and came out with it, as I suspect I would have looked like a perv if I didn't. Then later on, my mother, without my leave, goes and tells my grandmother, while I'm in the other room. A couple of days later, my gran wants to discuss my "affairs". I initially said I have no idea what you're talking about, but then she said how she was a nurse and all that, and pretty much saw it as a very interesting subject. I showed her the last pic I posted, in the wig and she didn't expect that and asked if I would like to go out looking like that and I said yes but I can't. My voice is too deep and I have that 5 o clock shadow beard. 

She mention how when I was two years old I always used to carry my barbie doll in public and show it off to strangers and used to start bawling if I dropped it. I said not to tell my brothers and sisters (of which I have seven) of this conversation. My gran said they should know and I put my foot down there. There's no reason to tell them now anyway.

She recommended I see a doctor soon, as in next week, and asked if I wanted to fully transition. I said that's it isn't it. The big question. I don't even know. What I know is that I really don't need a 5 o clock shadow beard that I can't seem to shave off (I bleed first). That can go for sure. I hate seeing that.

I'll have to submit some of my work for ya'll to critique sometime. ^^

I specialize in drawing, so yeah, for sure. https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,211169.0.html

I also got my second distinction in a row ( my second 75% mark) for college so at least all this hasn't affected my work in a bad way, (so far). So bring on year 2.

And no, my grandmother didn't like that I used her dress. But let it go, given the circumstances.  She finally understood why I didn't take her suggestions seriously to shave my hair and go bald like the football analysts on tv.

[Raye]

Man I WISH I really had that kind of supportive group of close-knit family. You are a very lucky girl! ^^ To be honest it might be worth a shot getting on hormones before working on electrolysis. But you do have a good point while your skin is still hardened and less irritable. For me I knew a lot of my hair would revert back before being on hormones for a pro longed time so the loss of hardening and more pain doesn't necessarily matter as much. If it means less treatment time. I still have some annoying areas of my facial hair growth, but HRT is different for everyone.