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Being trans is really hard, but...

Started by JessicaSondelli, July 23, 2016, 10:08:43 AM

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JessicaSondelli

pretending not to be trans (for decades) is even harder... I just realized this after 4+ months on HRT..

Just my 2 cents for today...

Love u all
-J




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Dee Marshall

April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!

Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.

They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!
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Michelle_P

Quote from: JessicaSondelli on July 23, 2016, 10:08:43 AM
pretending not to be trans (for decades) is even harder... I just realized this after 4+ months on HRT..

Just my 2 cents for today...

Love u all
-J

Wow.  Thanks, Jessica.  This is absolutely dead on.  Decades of debilitating internal conflict led to nasty dark depression.  Life, and living is so much easier once we can admit what we are and accept ourselves.
Earth my body, water my blood, air my breath and fire my spirit.

My personal transition path included medical changes.  The path others take may require no medical intervention, or different care.  We each find our own path. I provide these dates for the curious.
Electrolysis - Hours in The Chair: 238 (8.5 were preparing for GCS, five clearings); On estradiol patch June 2016; Full-time Oct 22, 2016; GCS Oct 20, 2017; FFS Aug 28, 2018; Stage 2 labiaplasty revision and BA Feb 26, 2019
Michelle's personal blog and biography
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Deborah

Living with dysphoria is hell so there is only one direction from there and that is up.
Love is not obedience, conformity, or submission. It is a counterfeit love that is contingent upon authority, punishment, or reward. True love is respect and admiration, compassion and kindness, freely given by a healthy, unafraid human being....  - Dan Barker

U.S. Army Retired
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IdontEven

Foreal. And I couldn't even tell just how wrong everything felt until I had something to compare it to. Now I get these periodic episodes where some aspect of my physical transition just feels so incredibly right; I didn't have any idea being alive could feel like that! I'm kind of surprised I made it as long as I did with absolutely no desire to live, tbh.
'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.
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Tessa James

Oh ya!  It was not until I accepted myself as transgender and gave up the "man act" that I was able to feel the weight lift.  I spent decades of trying to fit an image I never felt and near constant but routine "manning up" and corrections of the femininity i did feel.  Transition helped me to clearly see and viscerally feel the burden gone and the relief was palpable.  Our gender identity need not be contained in one of two little boxes!
Open, out and evolving queer trans person forever with HRT support since March 13, 2013
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Amanda_Combs

Thank you so much for this post!  As a girl who is trying to gather the gumption to do anything past thinking about how much a girl I feel like, it means a lot.  Knowing that I'd be getting rid of pressure instead of just adding more is very galvanizing.
Higher, faster, further, more
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LizK

I have said similar to this in a couple posts but think it is worth repeating...Since starting HRT I now get to experience the world like everybody else does and it is quite surprising how nice it is without all the Dysphoria. ;D

Liz
Transition Begun 25 September 2015
HRT since 17 May 2016,
Fulltime from 8 March 2017,
GCS 4 December 2018
Voice Surgery 01 February 2019
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nicolef

It happened to me when I was 24 years old and was out of the closet on it finally.It was a huge weight off of my back finally too.Regrets,I have none when I started my transition and even when I decided not to have the GRS when I was 28.Revealing the new me part after my transition was going to my 10 year high school reunion in 2007,my classmates were shocked at first seeing I changed big time.I was thinking I was going to be rejected and was not.They learned to the adjustments and called me Nicole right away.
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AnxietyDisord3r

Quote from: JessicaSondelli on July 23, 2016, 10:08:43 AM
pretending not to be trans (for decades) is even harder... I just realized this after 4+ months on HRT..

Just my 2 cents for today...

Love u all
-J

If I could upvote comments, yours would get all the upvotes from me.
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TardisGurl

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JessicaSondelli

We really should have likes or upvotes for both posts and comments...


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Deborah

There are upvotes on the main forum which you can get to through Tapatalk.  Select the three dots in the upper right corner and then from the popup select web view.
Love is not obedience, conformity, or submission. It is a counterfeit love that is contingent upon authority, punishment, or reward. True love is respect and admiration, compassion and kindness, freely given by a healthy, unafraid human being....  - Dan Barker

U.S. Army Retired
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Soli

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Arch

But pretending not to be trans is a subset of being trans...
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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