The thrill maybe gone but lifes a whole lot better

[PrettyFlowingGown]

Is there such thing as being too comfortable crossdressing? I say yes. I've been living alone for 2 years now. I'm far away from family. My best friend (a female) is very supportive, acceptive of me. Her best friend (a female) aswell knows about me too dressing and she also has a transexual friend aswell. Personally, I've found a very comforting circle, that seems to good to be true, and I think thats what every crossdresser yearns for. I have no fear whatsoever anymore. Its really weird how I've grown in this department. Its like my dressing has taken me to a different length.
I have no more anxiety shopping for dresses, skirts, gowns, lingerie. I walk in shops just like they are mens shops and browse without being redfaced or nervous.
I come home everynight, slip into a dress or skirt to relax, then get into my nightgown and go to bed.
When my mum comes up, I wear my nightgowns in her prescence when I'm preparing for bed.
I have another CD friend who comes around a few times after hours and we have a laugh, chat and have a little play (sexual wise), yes I am bi.

The truth is, I'm very comfortable now who I am and its become daily routine. I just do it as though its normal for me, and it is.

But when I look back, I have a funny and strange feeling about the days when I was struggling to be accepted by anyone, finding it hard going into dress shops alone.......
Going to mums place, trying on her dresses paniccing when she would come home and catch me.
Is it just me, or has the thrill gone in dressing? Yes, I love my dressing......very much so, but when I look back there was such a adreninline rush in putting a gorgous dress or gown on, in fear someone was going to catch you and you'd do it in secret, so your ear muscles would be the strongest bone in your body.
When I look back, being risky was kind of a thrill, whereis now, its become a ordinary way of life.
I remember going into a formal dress shop in Melbourne a few years ago, and loved a gorgous gown I liked. The lady said is it for someone special, I said nervously, no its for me. So she suggested I try it on. We waited until closing time till I tried it on. When I did, it was the most beautiful event to ever happen in my life. Nowadays, here in queensland, I've tried dresses on numorous times in dress shops, and its not the same as that certain time.

Oh well, I'm not complaining.....just kinda happy, I've been through it all, but its a handy hint for anyone with fear and guilt with their dressing and coming out. Moving away can do you a world of good, and your life changes all for the better.

[barbie]

In my case, I still feel the thrill. However, I do not care whether people catch me or call me 'lady' or 'sir'. At cosmetic stores, ladies there sometimes ask me whether this is for your or somebody else. I always say it's for me. Shopping stores are no problem for me, but bathroom is a different thing.

At my workplace, everybody knows who I am. Whatever I wear, I should use men's bathroom. Out of my workplace and my home, it depends on what I look like.
When I am with my family, I always try to use men's bathroom, and it is a dilemma when I am in woman's mode. For this reason, I do not wear obviously feminine clothes when I trip with my kids.

At a foreign city (Helsinki), I was in men's mode to attend a conference. During the lunch time, I stopped at a McDonald's and went to men's bathroom. Nobody was there. While I washed my hands, a man entered and muttered in Finnish when looking at my back. Then he quickly went out to check the sign on the door. I thought my long hair made him respond such way. I also calmly came out. After this experience, I always used women's until returning to my country.

Sometimes, I enter women's bathroom while I trip with my colleagues. At the first time, they seemed to be surprised, but nowadays they understand it because they saw that some strange men joked me like "I thought you were a woman, but you piss upright!". Nobody has yet shouted or responded when I use women's.

Barbie~~

[TheBattler]

I had to wonder about this after my trip to Sydney. Everything felt natural and I wondered why I was doing it. Now I relise that because it is natural to me - it is ggod to get som eme time.

Alice

[Jordan]

Pretty Flowing gown,

I think you are alot like me in alot of ways,

We feel much more comfortable in womens clothes.  Like it fits our personalities and minds.

I consider myself Transsexual, however, I have always gotten flak on other sites for not wanting SRS, or to take hormones.  I would like everything else but i dont wanna cut off my willie LOL.

I have also realised I am BI but only sexually not emotionally, emotionally I could only love a woman.

I am planning for a transition in my life but with conditions.

Hope a outward perpesctive can help with your own self examination.

Good luck

[Kaeren]

I used to go in my mother's closet also. There was some lingerie there. And I also found a book with sex-pictures which she had hidden there herself.  But that was long ago.  I don't live with my parents anymore now. I don't thinki she ever found out about me going in the closet but she might have suspected it.

Recently I put some perfume on myself. It was a tester from Ici Paris which I received. Female perfume. Then my boss called me to her office.  I thought I didn't put on a lot put apparently it was to be noticed by everybody. A secretary came in and said "It smells so good here." She looked at me and said "It is her ( my boss ) her perfume." I smiled back and thought "in fact this is my perfume." 

My boss didn't say a thing. She must have known.  Later I thought about giving the small tester to the secretary but I didn't.