So roughly four months in, I think I can finally admit its getting kind of bad.
My acne has always been moderately bad. I never considered it that bad due to seeing others who are way worse.
But now...the entire left half of my face looks kind of bad, Im hoping that wears off (Im worried I guess it might be because I sleep on it, but I dont know how I prevent that since I dont sleep on my back). Im starting to get it on my forehead, which is what induced the panic at this point, my forehead has always been clear. I do have tons of bacne and marks spreading on my shoulder but since those arent visible like my face Id rather they be there.
Since T Ive been trying to keep regular skincare regimens. Twice a day with what I have. My doctor gave me a prescription for tretinoin so I think its supposed to work stronger. Im hoping the recent flareup is only because I skipped appliations so when I return to putting it back on it will clear up a bit more.
How long does this phase last anyways? Awhile? Forever? Im starting to get upset and depressed that it wont ever wear off, that my face will be damaged for life, and I look at my partner who's taking estrogen and her face is spotless and beautiful. Im jealous. Then there's all the guys that dont flare up acne for life and...sigh, its kind of a reminder of the price I pay not being normal. Despite that, of course, I'll take the acne and becoming a man over the opposite.