hey all, its been awhile. my life right now is hell but I stopped caring. I won't transition anymore because well what's the point? well there is a point, I just three that point away. I'm not going to because its to much energy and effort, more than I can muster. I need to save what little I have left for far more important things when they come up. sure I'm throwing away my own happiness or the idea but it's whatever. anyways, bye now
