Hi, Elena here and I am beginning my journey to becoming who I really am. I am a 45 yo MtF. I have been cross dressing for ages and while dressed I always wanted to BE a woman and never wanted to take my female clothes off. Of course once the clothes were off I would overcompensate in male mode. This year, something just clicked. I realized that I was transgendered and that I have been fighting this my entire life. I now plan to transition, albeit very slowly as I am primary caregiver to my mother who suffers from dementia. I dont want to do anything that would affect her in a negative way. I am also concerned that my father and my friends will disown me once I come out. I really do want to just transition and be done with it. I know I will never be an attractive woman but that doesnt matter. I want to eventually be as passable as a woman as I can. I eventually want to do electrolysis and facial feminization surgery so I will at least be passable at some point. Not sure if it will ever go for the "bottom" surgery but I will keep it in mind. I hope I havent bored you all with my life's story
