Hi y'all!
I thought I'd come out of the shadows and post a short bio since I have been lurking here for long enough! I'm a 39 y.o. transitioning TS (MTF). I'm currently married with two grade school kids.
I told myself for years that I wasn't going to transition, and I meant it. I tried to be content just to wear the clothes and be Lucy in the cosmetic and social sense. For anything medical, I would say to myself "not in this lifetime". I really thought that the window had closed on it. However this arrangement did not last forever. Gradually, my sense that things were wrong grew and became impossible to ignore. I finally broke down in the spring of 2015 and decided to deal with my issues for real.
I've been seeing counselor since that time & he has helped enormously. He gave me the space to do my own self discovery and what I found was that, yes, I really do need to transition. I have been removing my facial hair via laser since for about a year, and I've been on HRT since late March of this year (closing in on 5 months as I'm writing this). I've also had a hair transplant a few months ago to correct my receding hairline. So far all are progressing, healing & growing as hoped.
It's not all smooth sailing by any means. I may still lose my marriage over this. I'm sure that I have lost friends already. I have not explicitly come out to the kids – they are too young to really get it – but they notice the changes. I'm still closeted at work. It's too early to call it a success.
I want to thank all the brave people here whose posts have helped me in my own journey of self acceptance. The very least I can do is contribute my own experiences in turn, no?
Until next time!
Lucy
