Only you can know yourself on that level. But that's ok. Just trust your own judgement and do what you feel will make you happy. Like you, I always look at women and get jealous of their clothes and bodies. But that doesn't necessarily mean that you and I should do the same things. So I can't tell you what specifically to do. But I can tell you this, if your mom is supportive enough to give you clothes, that's a good sign. I think it may be a good idea to talk to her more, and try to go to a therapist to talk it out, and to buy more lady clothes that are just for you. Maybe even try other things like makeup, and with each thing you try, you can learn which things feel right for you. Ultimately, the only thing that matters is being yourself, so try and not stress about it. Hope that helps. 🙂
