Bottom surgery for Gender Independent

[asagirl]

I been struggling with my gender identity for years now. I don't identify my self or consider my self as male or female. At best I seem to fall in the middle. I was born male at birth. But since I was a kid I never felt like a boy and never had a strong enough drive to try to be female. I live by the standards that society has put in place. I can safely call my self gay. While people most of the time have a hard time believing the fact that I am gay. My issue is that I so profoundly deeply want and pray that on day I can have a Vagina. That it has become a mission of mine to try to understand were I fit in with in the spectrum of Transsexualism.
The changes I want to make would be as listed.
Gender reassignment surgery Male to Female genitalia
Removal of the Adams Apple
No facial or body hair.  (I'm working on this already!)
Smooth skin such as a female.

What I do not want
Breast
Women body shape
Change of name on

Change of sex on birth certificate/government issued ID can be a consideration for government/medical purposes .

At work we have a privet family washroom that both Female and Males may use.
I use it every day and do my best not to use the male only washroom. I also look for and handicap washrooms out in public. I feel that these washroom meet my need for the time being. I have gotten in the habbit of peeing only when sitting down. I try to only wear cloth that can be acceptable for both genders and will shop in the womens department for clothe that I feel wont bring lots of attention to my self.

These are all the things about me that make it hard for me to find were I fit in this world of gender. I feel I am neither one or the other.  If any one has a idea on what I'm going through please help in any way you can.
Thanks

[zeekoe]

I'm exactly like you, yet the oposite way. I also have bottom dysphoria, I do am more masculine than feminine, though the bottom line, is bottom dysphoria. I wish I could trade my Vagina with your current genitalia, I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling with what you have. I really hope you will get a vagina and be the happy person you want to be. Whether you're female, male, nothing or inbetween, you have to be happy with your body, that's the basic!

I like your post, I really feel less lonely, don't feel weird or the odd one out, you're unique and awesome.

[actualist]

I was born male and want the bottom surgery only. Even though I am clearly masculine in appearance, I have a slightly effeminate shape and soft skin, which I really like about myself. When it comes to my genitals, I would rather have a vagina for various reasons. By only having the bottom surgery, I can stay true to how I see myself as a person. I noticed I subconsciously stopped identifying my gender unless I'm check a box; short answer "male". I've given thought to which restroom I would use, and I've decided I will continue to use the one I identify most with, men's. I'll just loose the convenience of standing at the stall. I don't plan to do much else differently since my genitalia doesn't come into play too often in my life (sex and lavatory). Nowadays clothes/fabrics are becoming more unisex, so as long as I dress comfortably and according to my own style I don't have any concerns about how I look to others. I noticed women's fabric is soooo soft but the body shape is too different for me to buy a new wardrobe so I'm limited to women's underclothes or outerwear (the zippers being on the other side always throws me off).

My primary objective is to be myself without hindrance. With the psyche evaluations, government/medical red tape, and commentary for the public, I know I will have to further prepare myself mentally to not let outside influences alter how I perceive myself. I need insight concerning the surgery, but I do not require speculation on who I am as a person or whether this is a necessity. The decision that only I can make is whether or not I want to pursue the surgery. Once I've one way or the other, then I will deal with the rest of the world as it comes.

I believe there is a place in the spectrum for everyone. There may not be a "title" for it yet, although I've seen there is a community online. Before a name can be put to it, there must be someone to respond. I can relate to your post and I wish you the best in your pursuit of happiness, however that will unfold.

[AnonyMs]

I'd try not worry about where you fit. You're judging yourself by other people's standards. But do make sure you know what you want.

If you've not see a therapist yet that's a good idea, and if you want surgery you'll eventually need a psych. Since your not in a common place on the spectrum its going to be more difficult for you. I'd suggest very carefully reading the DSM and WPATH SOC, in a kind of know your enemy sense. Its' going to inform doctors opinion.

[napelover]

I think that these surgeries should be free available to anyone, it's not the state business to decide on our genitals.
I suggest you to start with an orchiectomy if you can. That's what I want too.

[hibiki]

I been struggling with my gender identity for years now. I don't identify my self or consider my self as male or female. At best I seem to fall in the middle. I was born male at birth. But since I was a kid I never felt like a boy and never had a strong enough drive to try to be female. I live by the standards that society has put in place. I can safely call my self gay. While people most of the time have a hard time believing the fact that I am gay. My issue is that I so profoundly deeply want and pray that on day I can have a Vagina. That it has become a mission of mine to try to understand were I fit in with in the spectrum of Transsexualism.
The changes I want to make would be as listed.
Gender reassignment surgery Male to Female genitalia
Removal of the Adams Apple
No facial or body hair.  (I'm working on this already!)
Smooth skin such as a female.

What I do not want
Breast
Women body shape
Change of name on

Change of sex on birth certificate/government issued ID can be a consideration for government/medical purposes .

At work we have a privet family washroom that both Female and Males may use.
I use it every day and do my best not to use the male only washroom. I also look for and handicap washrooms out in public. I feel that these washroom meet my need for the time being. I have gotten in the habbit of peeing only when sitting down. I try to only wear cloth that can be acceptable for both genders and will shop in the womens department for clothe that I feel wont bring lots of attention to my self.

These are all the things about me that make it hard for me to find were I fit in this world of gender. I feel I am neither one or the other.  If any one has a idea on what I'm going through please help in any way you can.
Thanks

I completely agree with you on just getting bottom surgery, removal of facial and body hair and getting smooth skin. These are aspects that will definitely make me happy emotionally and sexually. The current bottom parts just doesn't make sense as I identify as a lesbian and the effects of constant stream of male hormones in terms of hair loss, sexual urges is something i can do without. In some sense, I do not see a need to change gender externally, as I am currently happy with the way I dress and look. However, I am very skeptical on how the doctor would actually approve of any form of bottom surgery if you are not looking to live on externally as the opposite sex.

[AnonyMs]

However, I am very skeptical on how the doctor would actually approve of any form of bottom surgery if you are not looking to live on externally as the opposite sex.

I've been looking into it for a while and I know you can get it done, and that there's a number of decent surgeons who'll do it. I'd guess you'll have to pay for it yourself.

[Androol]

I hate the way this has to be done. I just want to feel comfortable in my own body, and sometimes just getting rid of the extra appendage "down there" would be a major improvement. I do not necessarily need to fully transition in order to feel comfortable with my body. Fully transitioning would be nice, but there are a lot of hassles and some impracticalities.