Sugery Aug 28th

[Richenda]

It all sounds pretty positive Shellsters. If you're in Piyvate I paid one of the nurses to fetch me a proper coffee from downstairs. Big hugs for your recovery x

[warlockmaker]

Congratualtions. If you need anything please call my thai mobile 0940544232.
Bobbie xo

[jujubes1986]

Ok right after my last post the dr stoped in to check on me. He took of my diaper to see how things where. I was freaking out a bit wondering how things would look. Well, there wasn't much to see, except a lot of packing going in somewhere lol. The one thing I did notice was that there wasn't skin graft done. It would of been just up above if done. I asked why, and he said my scrotal skin was flexible enough so no reason too. I am very happy about this since it saved me some much needed money. But I'm also concerned about width and depth. As far as I was told it should not be a problem as long as I dilate properly.

I also am allowed to get up. This is awesome since my butt is killing me!

Hoping for a speedy recovery and congrats!

[shellsters]

It all sounds pretty positive Shellsters. If you're in Piyvate I paid one of the nurses to fetch me a proper coffee from downstairs. Big hugs for your recovery x

Yes! I just ordered a breakfast sandwich and coffee from the Au bon pain restaurant down stairs. Oh I'm in heaven now!!

Other than that not much else had changed. Had a little more pain down there than before. Asked for some pain meds, got something more than just Tylenol this time. The dr may take diaper off and packing out today, but I think nurse got day wrong. Im sure it's tommorow, but I do want to see if I can get diaper changed at least.

I did have a feeling or dream of phantom penis, I don't remember much about it. Only that it was not good!! I hope it doesn't happen again. I've kind of peeked a little down there, but can't see much still. Sensations have been coming back on quite frequently. It's hard to tell from where though. I cannot wait until the diaper and packing comes out. I will be forever great full!!   

I do lay here  and think quite often....wow you really did this. That appendage is no longer!! The only reason it hadn't set in fully is because I do not see of feel that it is. Soon grasshopper...soon!! 😀😀

[shellsters]

Question for anyone who has had SRS.

I'm starting to have some feelings down there, it's 3 days now. The one feeling I can get quit often if wanted is the feeling of moving something that use to be my penis! I don't think this is normal, and quite frankly it's not something I like or would like to continue. Has anyone else had this feeling? I had Dr Brin from PIA do my surgery. I see him in about 2 hours so I will ask then.   

Thanks 

[Jenna Marie]

The muscles that used to move the penis are still in place, and in fact, part of those muscles surrounds the place where the vagina was placed. Eventually, when your brain figures out where everything is, you'll realize that that's now how to squeeze something with your vagina.

I could definitely feel that I was clamping down on the packing by about day 4, but I also had full sensation from the very beginning, so by then I knew which nerve signals were coming from the vagina.

[Dena]

I am not sure what you are feeling but I am post surgical 34 years and I can still feel the glans and what it used to feel like during an erection. Without that feeling you don't have a sensitive clitoris as the glans was just relocated. Once your mind get used to the fact that there really isn't anything there any more to worry about, you won't know it's even there except in times of sexual excitement.

In addition, soon you will start feeling itching on body parts that are no longer there. It's just the nerves reconnecting and waking up but it can last a couple of years. 

[warlockmaker]

Dr Burin does beautiful work....You are going to feel alot of new sensations. Like Dena says it takes time for all the nerves to reconnect.

Some of that strange feeling is from the labia majora and when swollen it places pressure on the clitoris. They look like camel toes for a few months after surgery lol

[shellsters]

Thank you, thank you all who posted.

I have some very exciting news. I got to see my new vagina for the first time. I was quit nervous. The dr needed to change the dressing so after taking off old he asked if I wanted to see! Well yes!!!! I was prepared for the worse, but in fact it was much better than what I though it would be. My vulva is quite swollen yet and I was concerned. The dr told me it will go down considerably. With my major, minor labia and vagina I wasn't as concerned. I will admit I cried after the dr and nurse left. It is real now!!!

He also told me much of what I'm feeling is phantom sensations. I'm definetely feeling more as the hours and days go by. This is a good thing!! Tommorow I get packing out, yikes!! Then next day catheter and discharged from hospital. Yay!!!

[shellsters]

Ya know, another thing!

I can't believe I am actually posting about my srs. I had been a member on here for a couple of years, then faded away while I just lived my life. Always knowing that SRS would probably never happen. I think that's why I stoped coming on here.

I am in shock now that I am one the members that is posting about their SRS. It can and will happen to anyone who is determined. It is costing me some money I may need in future, but I need to live my life now!!

[Richenda]

Those are such positive posts to wake up to this morning Shellsters. I love that last one. I'm so pleased for you and can't wait to join the full SRS world

You had Dr Burin rather than Dr Sutin then?

Sending massive congratulations again: I'm so so pleased for you.

xx

[TinaVane]

Thank you, thank you all who posted.

I have some very exciting news. I got to see my new vagina for the first time. I was quit nervous. The dr needed to change the dressing so after taking off old he asked if I wanted to see! Well yes!!!! I was prepared for the worse, but in fact it was much better than what I though it would be. My vulva is quite swollen yet and I was concerned. The dr told me it will go down considerably. With my major, minor labia and vagina I wasn't as concerned. I will admit I cried after the dr and nurse left. It is real now!!!

He also told me much of what I'm feeling is phantom sensations. I'm definetely feeling more as the hours and days go by. This is a good thing!! Tommorow I get packing out, yikes!! Then next day catheter and discharged from hospital. Yay!!!

I'm dreading that part from the videos I seen of the undressing on utube from an Australian  girl. It was yyyyuuuuuggggeeeee and very Frankenstein looking like [emoji17][emoji17][emoji17][emoji17]


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[shellsters]

Tina, I too was very scared to see it. Many images I've seen elsewhere ran through my head. My expectations were not high. Maybe this helped, because when I fiialy seen my new vagina, I was elated!! It looked almost as I predicted!! It may have even looked better. Was it deformed and swollen? Yes! Did it look all small and dainty? No! And it will be sometime befor it will. But I have a vigina now!!!! It's mine! It's not done fake thing! And it works! Well not sure yet!

So I tell you this, please don't give yourself too high of expectations. There is no surgeon that can  give you good asthetic results from day one. If you do find one that says they can, stay away from them.

[SadieBlake]

Ya know, another thing!

I can't believe I am actually posting about my srs. I had been a member on here for a couple of years, then faded away while I just lived my life. Always knowing that SRS would probably never happen. I think that's why I stoped coming on here.

I am in shock now that I am one the members that is posting about their SRS. It can and will happen to anyone who is determined. It is costing me some money I may need in future, but I need to live my life now!!

Yes, I also drifted away (probably from Susan's but it's been too many years) the reason was as you said, deciding I couldn't get to transition, just spending time talking about being trans became more painful than helpful.

[shellsters]

Another big day!! Dr Burin was due to come here at around 2 to remove packing. I was told by Jesse, who happened to stop by to say hi and let me know also that the Dr was running late. The young men that do much of the administration at PAI are so sweet! Ok, the Dr shows up at about 4 he was quick to have the nurse pull across the curtain, then on with the gloves. I asked is the packing comeing out now, he nodded yes and then said also the catheter!! I was soooo pleased to hear that.

The packing took about 30 minutes to remove (no just kidding) but literally it took about a good half minute. It was like one of those magician tricks of pulling an endless scarf out of a hat. The last bit of it felt weird but not painful. Then he quickly popped out the catheter. That had a little pain but happened so quickly that it wasn't s bother.

He asked if I had to go potty, I did!! And fairly bad also. I sat there for about 4 minutes and nothing happened. He said that's ok just try again later. I tried again about 5 minutes later, after about a minute, I was tinkling a little....then a little more. Eventually it was somewhat more but not a huge amount at once. It took about 2 minutes to empty my bladder, but it was also very full. I'm very happy that I can go freely and wont have to have that dang catheter no more. Now for #2 to happen! 😀😀

About 5 minutes later 2 nurses came in to show me how to keep the area clean and disinfected! That was a bit awkward since these nurses were ones that did not speak the best English. It went ok though and we had some good laughs at some misunderstandings! Lol

Ok I have to go pee again!!! Hopefully all goes well again 😳

[SadieBlake]

Wow!! Congratulations :-)

Your mention of "phantom dick" is a bit daunting, looking forward to hearing how sensory realignment proceeds.

[shellsters]

Ok I've been back at hotel since yesterday. Things have been going fairly well. The only problem I'm having is controlling (holding) my pee, but I already had this pre surgery. Once I feel the need I better get there quick, just like before. Difference now is that even though I have to rush to get to toilet, I sit for about 30 secs before going ugh!! I also need to go quite frequently. I've gone 3 times while writing this!! My bowell movements have been very good, that was also the case before. Difference is, (tmi) clean up is so much less. Not sure why lol.

I am still quite swollen. Mostly the pubis mound. But what surprises me more is that my thighs are also, and very bruised. I actualy have some hips lol. Sitting is difficult, once seated I need to stay that way. It is frustrating that I can't cross my legs. I have always crossed my legs when sitting, even pre transition. It's the only comfortable way for me to sit. In fact I have a hard time eating and digesting food if my legs arnt crossed. Weird, I know!!

I will go to clinic tommorow to get checked and learn to dilate. Yikes. I havnt explored my anatomy too much, I'm afraid I may break something lol. I am able to see things well if I bend over backwards to mirror. My vagina seems very big, looks as if I could fit the largest dilater in now. Not sure why, it could be because I am bending over when viewing.

I'm not feeling any phantom penis feelings anymore. Thank goodness! I do have some strong twinges at times and some nice feelings too. Mostly though I am quit numb down there. Pain has been acceptable. I have only been on 500mg of Tylenol since day one. And only 2-3 a day. The pressure and swolleness is more uncomfortable than painful.

My surgery was postponed a few days due to extra testing. I was scheduled to leave on the 12th. Now it's the 15th. It still may be the 12th. I will find out tommorow. I'm fine with that if Dr is, but I'm in no rush to leave if he feels otherwise it's also my decision to leave on original date if he okay's it.

As for feeling different now that ITS gone. Not too much, but then again I am swollen and numb. I do look down in astonishment to try and imagine where it was lol. The smoothness is no different, Its actualy more bulging because of the swolleness and pad. Before surgery I was tucked 24/7 even at night. I had very little (hence the grafts) and my testes were ascended into the hip cavity. The yoga pants and leggings I brought look bad now! I have this huge mound!! Before surgery I was sometimes worried that the little I had would show when wearing leggings or yoga pants. Now I'm huge! But it has gone down already after just one day.

Walking makes things much worse, things will swell all over again. Laying in bed is the best, but it's not me!! Don't get me wrong, I love my naps! But I have a hard time doing just nothing!

Tommorow will be another big step in my journey. I will for the first time have something inserted into my vagina. A vagina I didn't have 3 days ago!😳  Someday I will have something else inserted into it for pleasure. Then I will finally have normal sex for the first time in my life. 😀

Thanks for listening 😉😉

[Dena]

The pee part. I was so swollen after surgery that it took almost a week before I could pee without a drainage tube. The swelling you have may prevent you from fully  emptying you bladder and make it difficult to get the flow going. Depending on how fast the swelling goes down, you may be a month or two before things are all the way back to normal.

[shellsters]

The pee part. I was so swollen after surgery that it took almost a week before I could pee without a drainage tube. The swelling you have may prevent you from fully  emptying you bladder and make it difficult to get the flow going. Depending on how fast the swelling goes down, you may be a month or two before things are all the way back to normal.

Thanks! That was kinda my thinking too 😊 Things have already improved in just the short time already. I'm also learning how to push a little too!!

[TinaVane]

Oh my at a drainage tube [emoji17][emoji17][emoji17][emoji17][emoji17]


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