I used to hang out on this forum a few years ago (2012, I guess?) when I was really struggling to try and discern whether or not medically transitioning was appropriate for me. I left for a long period of time and completely forgot every bit of my login information.
Anyway, I finally began the process towards the latter end of 2015, opting to undergo top surgery before beginning HRT. I feel that the choice was correct for me (I was... 'gifted' with impossible-to-bind, very 'lifted' sweater calves) and I'm also very happy with the results I received from my top surgeon in MN.
Though I've been pleased with how my transition has been going, I've lately hit sort of an unexpected roadblock. I'm still very early into the process (6 months on T, 7 months post-op) and even though some things feel like they moved INCREDIBLY fast, others feel like waiting around for tar pitch to drop.
I haven't been misgendered since I was about one month into the HRT. It was... strange, exhilarating and unlike anything I'd ever felt. Pre everything, I was called by male pronouns probably 60% of the time in the general public. Now, I'm positive that I'd get called out if I were to even attempt to enter the women's restroom.
My hips have shrunk, my upper body has bulked up considerably and I have a lot of new body hair. My facial hair is... eh. It's slow. I get a little bummed when I see dudes that have pretty decent looking amounts six months in.
But, more than that... I feel like I've entered the 'fat face' stage. I heavily work out 4 times a week and I'm in the best shape I've ever been, but my face is wide as hell (at least, to me). I've put on 25 pounds since starting T but all my pants fit way looser and I had to go up a size in shirts, so I know I haven't just packed on a ton of fat.
I just definitely feel like I'm in a very awkward stage. Even though I'm very confident in myself these days, more so than I've ever been, I can't help but feel like I'm not 'there' yet. I'm not sure when or if that day will ever come.
But I digress. My voice used to be a large source of stress and general discomfort for me. It was never high-pitched, but it was never pegged as male. Not once.
This me me six months in:
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1IA02ymZSjV