Hi Everyone
Just thought I'd come on here and talk about my situation. It's not long now till I go full time, only about 3 weeks away. My family knows and have known for the last 15 years and probably before that also. I've had meetings at work with management and HR are now supporting me through this. The women at work were all told recently as I'll be using the ladies toilet. Some of our customers have been told and some have not but will find out eventually when I present myself as female. I am being treated at Charing Cross and already been for one appointment the next one has been arranged. I have sent off the documents to change my name and once back will start to change everything else, driving licence, bills, insurance and so on.
I'd be lying to you if I said I was completely 100% sure I wanted to do this. The truth is that I'm still not sure if what I'm doing is right for me or not. Is this normal to go through these thoughts? There are so many things that keep me questioning whether or not transitioning is the right thing to do. I know I have been like this for most of my life and I identify myself as female. Apart from work, I have been living as a women continuously for the last 2 years. Before that, I was still dressing but only on a part time basis, sometimes skipping a weekend or an evening in the week or a whole week. Having had several sessions of laser hair removal now applying make up has become a lot easier and more frequent now I don't have to shave so often anymore.
I keep thinking about how life was as a man compared to now. Being a man gave me the freedom to do anything at a moments notice and go anywhere. As a women I feel I've lost some of those privileges. Also, I can never seem to get on with things that I did as a guy. If something needed repairing in the house or my car needed something fixing on it or work had to be done in the garden, I feel a little awkward doing that as a women but have got on with it anyway but never feeling totally comfortable with it.
I know perhaps in time I will eventually readjust but just wondered if other transwomen go through similar thoughts.
J x
