I've not been around in awhile + I figured I'd might as well check in; so no one was worrying about me LOL... I've left my Grocery Support Manager position @ Wal-Mart for an Odd-Jobs position @ Publix. Probably one of the best decisions I've made in long time. Not going into details because they're quite personal one's, but so far I'm loving the new change and appreciation I get for my hard work. It's different, but I'm getting use to it each passing day and haven't any regrets yet. I became more pro-active on my YouTube Channel when before I just wasn't motivated anymore. So I took up my Gaming again, which is good, but it's such a time consuming job. But I'm more motivated now and that's a good thing. Gained some new subscribers so that's always a plus! ^^
I and my Endo finally got my PCOS under control or at least for now where as it was pretty OP. And now we're dealing with my Thyroid issues... Yaaayyy Problems after Problems, but you guys know what I always say. Life is about solving problems after another problem. You solve one problem and move unto the next and solve that one. Then you go onto the next, the one after that + finally continuing on and on until the day you die. You either learn quick or you just find another way around it. But you gotta handle problems like an Ear of Corn. Simple, smooth, and easily manageable.
Coming up to my 9 months on HRT soon and I've got some B's now! OMG really I honestly haven't felt this good in my own skin in like..... I guess since I was 6 years old hehe. It feels really good I'm not gonna lie or go OP on it because we all know a lot of you girls out there have some bigger one's too! But I am starting to gain a bit more self esteem and confidence in myself to just do what makes me happy than to subdue to what makes others happy. My family has become more comfortable with who I am, but still uses that old birth name from time to time. So I guess it's a work in progress. And I guess my personality has changed a bit.... I tend to by more Shy now - kinda throws off that steele-confidence I once had, but it's a good kind of shy.
My girlfriend, who is also trans
really likes to point out how cute I am when I become so shy. Sometimes it's unbearable and I just hide behind her if I'm too shy like she's some shining knight. Or I'll hide behind an object until I calm down a bit hehe. It's a really good relationship having someone who understands what your going through. You can be there for them when they need you the most + vice versa. She inspired me to pick up my sketchbook and pencils again to draw - when I said I would never pick up a pencil + sketch book again... I'm rusty now, but if I could make some killer art in the past I can do it again! ^^ And honestly I wasn't planning on getting into a relationship after my wife passed in 2012, but my new girl really is something - I love her so much! <3 I didn't want to re-enlist I couldn't do that to her and make another woman wait on me. The last time that happened I spent nearly two tours in Kandahar and she passed away due to Leukemia. And I could care less about my VA Benefits - nor the Higher Education ones.
For better or worse you can only go down or up in life... So you might as well keep soaring as high as you can possibly can.
