I'm very new to expressing myself honestly, as opposed to just trying to react in a way that I think people expect. For the last year or so I've felt comfortable under the term genderfluid, as the femininity seemed to come and go, though I'd never really let it out that much, even in private.
But over the last couple of months I've been letting it show, and it's made a huge improvement in my well-being. Imagine that!
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Now my 'male days' are making me question the "fluid" side of me, since I go from feeling feminine, happy, friendly, and conversational to ... 'male me': withdrawn, anxious, bitter, and self-loathing. It's getting to be time to re-evaluate things, I think. I'm hoping that HRT will make my 'male days'/'bad day' less frequent.