Welcome!
This is a very warm, non-judgemental place. You will find friends here.
I hope you will be able to move past this obviously toxic relationship. I assure you, this one experience does not characterize the entire world. I urge you to spend spend time reading threads on this site to get an idea of the experience of others here. Collectively, we all struggle with our TG natures; some considerably more than others. There is no one correct path to follow and the struggle and resulting joys is in the discovery of ones own path to self realization and a workable life plan.
Most of us end up in some sort of therapy or formal counseling at some point. There are those who will advise you against it but the overwhelming majority find therapy extremely helpful to sort out the many issues that must be confronted in finding your path.
My advice for you is to move past this unfortunate relationship and concentrate on getting your "house in order," meaning concentrate on figuring out what you need to do to get on with your life, coming to terms with your M2F gender concerns, living as authentically as you can, coping with dysphoria, and so on. Relationships are difficult at any stage of life, more difficult if TG, and nearly impossible to navigate prior to having your own issues sorted out adequately.
I tend to think of Susan's Place as an incredible well of wisdom and experience concerning TG life, transition and coping. It is in many ways a global group therapy session when you need it. On the other hand, you will surely find friends here. I count several of the regulars as real friends who have selflessly extended a helping hand to me in some difficult times.
Welcome, again!
Steph
