Hi I'm Torchickens and I'm new to these forums.
I identify as gender questioning leaning towards female, my sex is male, but often feel that I identify as female and would like to go as far as beginning to legally identify as female and transitioning from a male to female body. When I'm in a good mood I think that's what I want to do, other times when I'm not feeling so well (as I have been experiencing depression, thankfully things have been getting a lot better and I feel low a lot less often now) I question if that's really what I want to do. Other times I think about it and remember that you have the right to and it's OK to present yourself in whatever way you like as long as you feel happy about it.
I feel a little out of place here because I don't know if I view myself as experiencing gender dysphoria, although I know I'm not alone. I don't dislike having a male body per se but would just prefer to identify and present myself as female, as when I'm in a positive mood it makes me feel happier to identify in that way.
When I look back it can make me feel a little anxious because in ways I still see myself as Tom (my name currently) as people have known me as that; yet I also see myself identifying and expressing myself as Evie (the name I would like to have). The past two years I painted my nails and tried crossdressing (which I personally view as feminine) and feel comfortable this way, and I feel it has lead to me feeling happier about identifying as female.
I've been referred to a gender identity service to talk about my feelings. The waiting list is long but hopefully will come to a better decision as to where I want to go soon (and I have an inclination that I am Evie).
Nice to meet you.
