Haven't posted for a few weeks.
It's been a few weeks of progress and especially in the last week.
I had been having struggles with my wife in terms of progress and speed and change and stuff.
I had been feeling really dysphoric and unhappy and unsatisfied and felt I really needed to makes some progress.
I thought perhaps makeup would be that thing. It started one day during last weekend when everyone was out of the house and so I snuck to my 20 year old daughters make up and had a bit of a raid.
I felt so good even if I didn't use enough due to not wanting to take too much...
So this week I spent some money and bought some foundation, powder, mascarra, eyeliner, eyeshadow and blush.
My profile Image here is my 3rd attempt at doing the makeup thing.
It feels so good to wear it. The first day I did it I was pretty much at home but I did duck up the shops to grab something and shock horror nothing happened that was terrible etc.
The second day I had a web meeting with a colleague who simply said I looked gorgeous. I then went off in my car to meet a colleague for a face to face meeting. I walked in the door and she said wow you really have a pretty face. Then today day three I got myself ready had another web meeting and afterwards took myself off to the local cafe and had myself a coffee.
I felt free, powerful and right. I felt like me. I was consious of the odd funny look but I really didn't care, I was like well you know what they can look and stare all they like I really don't care.
The next steps for me are to be getting that letter from the psych to get the hormones happening and the getting into some clothes that are not boymode clothes.
It is very much a wonderful thing to discover the truth of oneself.
