Transgender but choosing not to transition?

[Charlie Nicki]

I feel like that is exactly where I am at right now.  I had started ,then stopped for reason not too dissimilar as the op, and now a few months later, I'm questioning everything again, and I really miss my Estradiol and Progesterone right now!

Thank you for sharing your experience Myranda. I really appreciate it...I still struggle with the decision I made to actually transition and go full time within the past year, just because I miss my ex, usually these intrusive thoughts come to my mind making me question that if I had stayed I man would I somehow be happy. Seeing your post makes me believe I would also be frustrated if I hadn't transitioned, it's just easy to forget how miserable and empty I felt. Thanks again.