Losing Marbles

[Wild Flower]

I don't know what is going on, but all I know is that I feel weird lately. My emotions go from normal to anxiety, and then back, and I am talking to myself a lot more... even at work, and I just feel better to do it. I am even messing my sentence up by skipping words, like broken English. And today, I was reading something, and I couldn't comprehend it, and it was like "blah blah blah". I know the words, but I wasn't retaining it.  And I feel like I have to "scream" to myself, and I know that's not normal.

And I put myself crazy conditions, like I went to the club, and then I went to sleep behind a dumpster. That's not normal. I want to be loved by someone but it's not happening... I just feel bad.

I feel like I am losing my marbles. I don't even feel gender dysphoria as much, I just feel like I am just trying to survive against the currents of life. I don't have wants. I just need food, water, shelter... no true wants at least... I don't know what it could be.

But I am not depress.

[Angélique LaCava]

Ever thought about seeing a therapist?

[jentay1367]

I had something like that happen to me once. I kind of decided I'd had a mini nervous breakdown. Lasted like 72 hours and when it was through, I felt like I'd been beat up. I attributed it to my dysphoria. Are you on HRT? If not and you identify as TS, it may be time to consider it. And I'll reiterate what Angelique said, if you're not seeing a therapist, maybe it's time. Whatever you do, be careful during this period and try to stay calm and centered.

[Wild Flower]

I am not depress or think any bad or ill. It's more nervousness and anxiety.

I consider transitioning every day of my waking life. It's a miserable feeling, to pretend who you are everyday, it's taking a toll on me. I think I will after I leave my job, I want to start anew with new people.

[Angélique LaCava]

I am not depress or think any bad or ill. It's more nervousness and anxiety.

I consider transitioning every day of my waking life. It's a miserable feeling, to pretend who you are everyday, it's taking a toll on me. I think I will after I leave my job, I want to start anew with new people.

Therapist are for people who are having the same issues you are having. They are to help you through problems.They arnt psychiatrists. You also can't get on hormones without seeing a therapists.

I also want to add.... I don't think you know what you want because on this post you went from saying you feel no dysphoria to saying you do. That's actually why you see a therapist before starting to see if that's really what you want.

[Jill E]

Please find yourself a therapist. They really do help. ❤️


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