Jason thanks for replying.
I guess it´s not possible. Unless maybe I start biking across half the country every day

I am not rich so I can´t afford to just bribe someone to damage the junk, and I am hoping to get surgery anyway, so it´d be kind of senseless.
Surgery isn´t for a while and in the meantime I am looking for ways not to go nuts since my dypshoria is really bad. I guess I will stick with lidocaine for the days that are the worst. Or who knows maybe I will find some type of natural alternative one day...