I'm Flying

[Jillieann Rose]

Hi,
I'll write more about this later, but had to tell you that my wife caught me wear this some panties and she said, "Oh how cute." Then we huged and kissed.
Sorry got to go to church now. I'm flying high.
Tell you more later.

Jillieann

[HelenW]

Jillieann that sounds great!

I can't wait to hear more ! !

[stephanie_craxford]

Zoot Alor, mon ami,

I bet your Sunday is going to be one to remember.  I hope your obvious joy didn't cause too much chaos at church 

Steph

[Peggiann]

Jilleann,

"Oh how cute." Then we huged and kissed.

This can't be all bad then. Just don't under estamate the result of telling her all you have to say. Glad to hear some progress is being made.

Prayers for a wonderful day and understanding outcome.

Smiles,
Peggiann

[Bombi]

Jillianne, That sounds positive I hope it is the beginning to a greater depth to your relationship with your wife.Be patient. My wife is pretty good about my  wearig panties and bras. When she does the laundry she folds the and puts them away for me' I do the same for her. Also my wife, Jill prefers that i don't wear things with flowers or lace or the color pink. That's ok with me. I hope your wife can find a way to help you be you. Good Luck

[molly]

Jilleann:

I am very happy for you, it sounds like your wife is special lady and understands that you are still you, and the reason she loves you has not changed.

Molly

[Kimberly]

Hang on to your scarf Jillieann!

[Lisabeth]

That's great news Jillieann!  The initial reaction could have been so much different.  She may think that it is just an isolated incident though so be careful not to overwhelm her with too much at once.  That sounds kind of funny coming from me after all I have put my wife through., but I am just hoping it continues to stay positive for you.  You deserve it.  Good Luck!

Lisabeth 

[Jillieann Rose]

Thank your all for the kind words.
Let see were to start.
Well I've hard my toe nails polish and she notice that Saturday night but said nothing.
I wonder what we happen and then Sunday more came with the how cute. They are purple with lace on the edges.  She told me last night that when she seen the nail polish she new I was a cross dresser. (But I'm getting ahead of myself)
During the afternoon I gave her a 4 paragraph note that described what CD, TG, GID and my view of how God view this. I told her it described me and what was happening and ask her to read it and than I would answer any questions she had. (It was a long night, with tears and lots of hugging.) She was afraid that I would leave her. She felt like she had failed to be a good wife and lover. She though I was going to have an operation and remove all my male parts. She could understand why she hadn't notice my problem in thirty three years of marriage. Why hadn't I told her sooner?  Why had I told a group of strangers on a website? Did I still love her? Who was I? And many more questions.
I answer every question as honest as I could.
We end the session hugging and kissing and she said she wanted to be included in all of this. We talked some more and than she gave me a girdle that was too small for her. I'm two sizes smaller in most clothes. And now she wants me to show her how to shape her eyebrows she really love the why I did mine.
At this point she doesn't want to see Jillieann, but doesn't mind seeing me in femme underwear. She doesn't even no my name yet. She said it will take time to except all of this, but she loves me.

More news.
I took my 3rd trip out as Jillieann. The reason was I need a hair trimming. I want to a salon in the mall and had my hair cut in a short style that I found on the net that can be either man or woman. It looks beat as a woman style and looks really sharp. I just need a little jelly for a female look. I had a great time talking to the hairdresser (and she didn't make me). Wow, I must be dreaming. Than I went to the shoe store that was near by and found a pair of burgundy velvety boots, with 2 inch heels. They were on sale so, you guess it, I bought them. Oh no one made me today.   
Anyway I skipped over cloud nine and I'm now on cloud ten.
  Thanks everyone for your encouragement and a special thanks to the female SO's that share there feeling with me.  ( Peggiann, Veronica, Sharidove)

Jillieann   

[Jillieann Rose]

I want to show you what my new hair style looks like.
Hope this shows up.


Jillieann

[Peggiann]

Jillieann,

Wow how wonderful! Those words don't seem quite adiquit for it either but I hope you know all I mean and feel for you and your fantastic wife. Please don't keep her to yourself now as well need her too. Us other Significant Other's. Please Share with her this site and a place she'll be among freinds and very special people. The we won't be strangers any more.

Do listen to her request for little time to take it all in and allow her to flip flop if she needs as she more fully understands it all. As she becomes more educated with the issues and grows from being a part of this as she requested, let her know everyday how much she means to you and how much you love her. Give her space when she needs it and an open door for being a part and communicate about all the things that pop in her head...and in your head as a result from what she shares with you.

You are truely blessed. I told Leah last evening and earlier today that there must be a lot of talking crying laughing hugging kissing going on because you had not made it back in yet to give us all an update.

Please copy this and other posts of mine off and share with her so she'll not feel left out and we can bond that way too.

Smiles and Tears of Joy, 
Peggiann

[Lisabeth]

hi jilleanne,

great news!!!  i am so happy for you both.  it is wonderful everything is out in the open.

remember slow down and take baby steps and include her and don't shut her out.

best wishes to you both,  and as peggianne suggested share the site with her.

veronica

p.s. i always loved the name -if we had a girl years ago i wanted to name her jillian ... 

[veronica]

oops...faux paus

lisabeth forgot to log out and my message is under lisabeth's id

best wishes jilleann 

veronica

[stephanie_craxford]

That is such great news Jillieann,

It is so wonderful to be able to share and find the support and love from someone as dear as your wife.

Steph

[HelenW]

What a huge weight of your shoulders this must be, Jillieann!  I agonized over what/when to tell my wife of my increasing GID and I remember the relief I felt after telling her, even if her reaction was less than enthusiastic.  Her increasing acceptance makes me feel the same you you do now.

Your obvious joy comes through in your writing and is truly a tonic for me.  I wish you both luck and even more joy in experiencing this new and exciting area of your relationship.

[chickenmanfred]

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!  lol... it takes so much courage....

[unicorn]

Wow, Jillieann, congratulations, You must be so happy
I wish you and your wife all the best.

*hugs*
Alex

[Louise]

Jillieann,

Your post sounded so familiar to those of us who have been through similar experiences.  I told my wife about my being a crossdresser about seven years ago after 30 years of marriage.  Her initial reaction was similar to your wife's.  We are still happily married and I haven't transitioned and have no interest in doing so.  This is probably a wife's greatest fear--will she loose her husband?  You need to keep reassuring her.

It is great that your initial experience has been so positive.  Just remember that any relationship is dynamic--things will change.  At first, my wife had no interest in seeing me as Louise (she still always talks of "Louise" in the third person; she always addresses me by my male name) but this changed.  Now I dress freely around the house.  It is great to be on cloud ten.  Just remember not to push things too far too fast.  If you make too many changes in your appearance this will only serve to reignite any fears that your wife has.

Louise

[Jillieann Rose]

Thanks everyone for you kind words. Yes I do feel much better now that I have told her.
You have to be honest (sometimes painfully) in any real relationship.

My wife went to her first therapy session Wednesday. The session went well she said.
She had to talk to someone about how she felt beside me.
(Susan's she is not ready for yet. Still a little jealous of you all knowing first.)
My SO said that she was grieved the lost of her male husband and if she wanted a female SO she wouldn't have married me.

By the way she has been acting her feelings for me have been all mixed-up.
Last night she seemed to be getting much better. We hugged and kissed and just share some personal time together. No talk about transgender or relationship issues.

When I told her the pain when that I seen in her eyes was almost unbearable. There are moments that I can still see the hurt in her eyes.
Like I said in an earlier post she doesn't want to see me all dressed. My SO said that  doesn't have a problem with seeing me in woman's underwear (that is only kind I will wear), but I notice she tries not to look when I have a bra on. For now I have been put a bra on in the bathroom so I won't disturb her.
I just don't want to hurt her feelings more.

Now I know that our relationship is changing and I hope for the better.

Jillieann

[Shelley]

Hey Jillian,

Glad to hear things are going so well for you. As for your wife I think the thing is not push things to quickly and work within the boundaries she wishes to set. It's not always easy but at least it allows you to keep her in your life. i think the other options are not worth considering if you want her to stay with you. Good luck.

Shelley