My best friend just died :(

[LiliFee]

I have a reason to be sad..

The road behind me is long and winding, as my last 10 years of adult life (31 now) haven't been easy. During that road, I have met some kind people, some strange people and a very few good friends.

One of this best friend, J., just died last week. He was one of the few people who honestly always gave the feeling I was safe. Through all of the things I've done, the weird paths I've taken and the crazy times we had, he was really there for me.

Weird times... With my SRS coming up in 8 months, life is like a roller-coaster and there are so many things happening constantly... He was a part of that, but now he's had to go on.

If only I could share this with him

[DawnOday]

My best friend was killed  in Vietnam while I was in highschool. He was a year older than me. I still miss him everyday. Luckily I still am friends with his sister and we comfort each other. pain of the loss never goes away. I have been to the wall to visit and celebrate his life on three occasions. 

[zamber74]

That is horrible, I'm so sorry for your loss  

[Devlyn]

Big hug! I lost my best friend in November. We met on the first day of first grade back in 1967. I  was best man at his wedding. I had fun explaining that to people when we gathered to celebrate his life. 

It's a difficult time for me, I understand where you are.

Hugs, Devlyn

[SailorMars1994]

Big hugs from me to! I discovered last year that my best childhood  male friend died when i tried to find out where he was.. he died back in December 2010. I was shocked and saddned but not suprised. He had cystic fibrosis and as soon as he got really really ill, which is shortly after i moved and changed schools  we lost contact for many yers, though we did bump into eachother when we were 13/2007. I still miss that lil man from my earliest memories. But atleast his pain is over. I wonder how shocked he would be if he were alive and seen me transition. Girl you are not alone, and i am sorry for your loss <3

[Denise]

Oh my God.  I'm tearing up over this.  That's such a shock.  I don't know what I would do if my closest friend and confidant passed away.

Know that we are all your friends and we're here to listen if you need.

- Dee

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[CarlyMcx]

My best friend died suddenly from a heart attack when we were both 42.  That precipitated 10 years of panic attacks, with fake heart attack symptoms and a deep fear of dying suddenly on my part, and the feeling that I needed to do something in my life that I had not done yet.

Turns out I was in deep denial about being transgender, and that was what was behind the panic attacks -- which were caused by having to face my own mortality, and the feeling that all of a sudden, time was running out.

Every time I thought about transitioning before that, I kept putting it off until later in life, and filling my life with other things.

Peace, Carly

[LizK]

I am sorry for your los...losing close friends sucks

Take care of yourself

Hugs Liz

[Rachel]

I am sorry for your loss. 

[Bobbi Anne]

My best friend died suddenly from a heart attack when we were both 42.  That precipitated 10 years of panic attacks, with fake heart attack symptoms and a deep fear of dying suddenly on my part, and the feeling that I needed to do something in my life that I had not done yet.

Turns out I was in deep denial about being transgender, and that was what was behind the panic attacks -- which were caused by having to face my own mortality, and the feeling that all of a sudden, time was running out.

Every time I thought about transitioning before that, I kept putting it off until later in life, and filling my life with other things.

Peace, Carly

Very sorry for your loss.

[SophiaBleu]

I'm sorry for your loss...

[LiliFee]

Thank you all! It's good to hear I'm not alone in this

[AnxietyDisord3r]

Here's a hug, Lilifee. So sorry for your loss.