New Girl on the block.

[DaniMack45]

Hi,
I'm Dani, I'm new here. Although I don't even know if I even belong here. I don't fit any standard transgender narrative that I've read about. I'll try and give a brief introduction to myself and how I got to the point of realizing that I might be transgender.

I'm in my mid forties (not a great age for transition!!), average height, fairly slim but unfortunately no hair on top https://www.susans.org/forums/Smileys/susans/embarrassed.gif . I've always been a quiet and reserved person. I suffer from a low level of autism, which makes any form of social contact awkward and painful. I've also suffered from debilitating severe depression since my mid teens.

About two years ago I decided that I might try internet dating (it didn't work  ). But for some unknown reason I decided to use one of my portrait photo's in an online makeover app., adding hair and makeup just for a laugh. But rather than being disgusted with the result. I kept on seeing a semi-attractive woman looking back at me. This must have triggered some deep subconscious memories, because suddenly being female felt right. It also triggered another memory that I used to do when younger. I used to wrap a towel around my head, with just my face showing and when I looked in the mirror a female face was looking back at me.

So this is how I've to the point of thinking that I might be a MTF transgender. I'm not on hormones, I've done nothing about facial hair removal, but I have bought a cheap long wig. Well it was long until I decided that I liked my fake hair shorter and attacked it with some hair clippers.

I'll try and add a link to some photo's of me in the wig. I should warn you that they are not pretty, but at least they are real and of me as I am now.

Thanks for reading and understanding,
Dani.

https://www.flickr.com/gp/147235716@N03/nPkCfs

[Cure Bunny]

Hello Dani

Each comes to themselves at their own time, so you are you.

It is nice to meet you, and I hope we can help you a little on your journey.


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[LordKAT]

Hi Dani, Welcome to Susan's.

There is no one standard narrative to mean you belong here. All you need is  to be having questions or supporting someone who has questions. As you read  around the site, you will find that people come here with all kinds of starts, and many different goals. Each is legit.


I'm giving you some links to site rules and such, please read through them.

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[Angela Drakken]

Dani, you look radiant. There is no 'best age' for transition, don't let that bother you. :3

[Michelle_P]

Hi, Dani! You look like someone who is starting to find themselves, full of energy.  Like the old line, "You've got potential, kid!" 

There really isn't a standard transgender narrative.  We each have to find our own path, our own way to deal with the impact of the past and our hopes for the future.  There may be similarities between each of us, of course, but ultimately this is a very personal journey.  As far as age goes, I'm 63 and in transition, an age I found appropriate as waiting for 64 wasn't something I cared to do.  The best age to start taking care of ourselves is, well, NOW!

I hope you will find some of what you need with everyone here.  It's a great place that Susan, her crew, and all the members have built.  Welcome!


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[V M]

Hi Dani 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

[DaniMack45]

Thanks for all the kind comments. I know that I'm just starting on the road to transition, I just hope that I have the mental strength to make it  to the other side. I will try and give regular updates as to how thing are progressing. This site provides a great deal of useful information, if you are willing to look for it. And hopefully I can give back something to the site as time progresses.

Dani.