Hi people,
I truly must apologize for my extremely long absence, but there has been so many things going on in my life that I just felt overwhelmed, overtaken by them.
It is New Year's Day, which generally does not mean anything to me, but this year I think it means more than it has ever done before.
I have done some intense therapy and discovered (not only through therapy, but also through self-acceptance) that I am most likely more "feminine" than masculine. I have always felt feminine, from as early an age as 4-5, but I have been forced into some form of masculinity my whole life, which has (in more ways than one) not served me well at all, it has not allowed me to be myself, has not offered me the room to grow, has not allowed me the acceptance that I have needed.
Through series of tests etc, it was agreed that my brain actually functions more akin to a female than a male, but this was no surprise to me - I kind of always knew I was that way inclined, but it was nice to hear that I was not "masculine".
So now, I am stuck in a place were I am not sure WHO/What/Why I am. I do not WANT to be male, I never have, but my exterior tells everyone I am. I do not feel inside male, but my exterior presents itself as such, even though my brain continuously screams at me not to, I cannot control my exterior.
I (obviously) need help, and I want this year to be the year that I am able to open up about this, seek help and get it properly, as opposed to not receiving any help at all, and getting help from people who truly do not understand anything about identification and gender issues.
I live in Melbourne, Victoria, so I would like to meet others, and have recommendations on where to go for help?
